Is It Just Me? ....... But........

Monday 14th March,  I dreamt but can't recall what about? Woke at 9.30am to a bright sunny day, lovely! This Monday feels so much more positive, than last Monday, with it's Sunday Migraine hangover & the bitter taste of family disappointment. In a week I have gone from deeply Hurt, to Angry & then onto 'You just can't reason with Ignorance!' So I've decided to stop caring, you can only hit your head against a brick wall, for so long! If he can't love, or respect me, for who I am, or appreciate, my tough situation, then I am afraid it is his loss..... even if he is too pigheaded to realise it!! 

I had a wash & washed & dried my hair, then twisted it up into a French pleat, I did a light make-up, then Bob text to say he had been chosen for the Endimol pilot of the new show 'Is It Just Me' too, so he'd see me Wednesday. (I'm The Cougar & He's The Cockney Geezer!) lol typecast much???....


Dressed in 3/4 dark grey gym trousers, with white side stripe, black/white TrimSoles, light grey, V-neck long sleeved Petite Bateau T-shirt & white body warmer, then popped for my 2hr walk round the park (in nice weather for a change!) I got chatting to a quite hunky, tall, rugby type, South African, with a cute Springer Spaniel that was all over me (which was how conversation started) I got home & Put a black wash in the machine, made myself  a veggie burger with 2 Quorn burgers & some salad in a bun & then headed off to Iceland & got £25 worth of shopping with £25 of vouchers as my fridge & freezer was empty, that should last me 1-2weeks (depending on hunger pangs!!) 

I got in & did a job search, but only found 5 new ones, that I'd  not already applied for today, applied to all of them. Then watched The Brilliant 'Real Housewives Of Orange County' which I 1st saw on Bravo on Candies TV, when I was decorating the interior of her home for her. Now its on ITV2, it's an old series but it means I get to see when, my favourite Housewife Gretchen, joined the show, and try & suss out why the other Housewives are so bitchy to her? So far as far as I can see, its Jealousy as she is younger and prettier (she is 30 they are in their 40's) Candie says Vicky's mannerism's & some of her attitude reminds her of me, which is quite funny as Jeana, who is Vicky's best friend reminds me in some ways of Candie!!

Gretchen & Vicky (Me?)

Jeana (Candie?)

I watched 'Come Dine With Me' I thought this was a new series, but you can tell this is shot on cheaper film, the whole look is different, as is the picture quality & lighting. So this must be an old series. I filled in my Census Form, I was expecting loads of questions & in total it asked less than half as much, as a housing benefit form! And why they want to know if anyone will be visiting you on March 27th I don't know? & what if you say NO & then somebody pops round on the 27th unexpectedly (most odd!!) I watched 'Home & Away' and had a snack of salt & vinegar crisps, plus a Diet Coke. Then I began writing last weeks blog, as thanks to my darling brother after getting up to date with my blogs. I was too upset & in too much pain, from a stress induced migraine, to write it. I watched the soaps then 'How To Live With Women' followed by a double bill of the brilliant 'The Event' really glad it's back I love my sci fi. Then read the paper. 

More on the Tragedy in Japan after their devastating Earth Quake & Tsunami, but there was one bit of joyous news, a 60 year old man was found alive clinging to what was left of the roof of his house, for two days, 10 miles out to sea. Meanwhile in the West Midlands UK, a 3yr old kid has been treated in hospital for alcoholism (WTF) It is thought he was given booze repeatedly for 6 months (why..... to knock him out?) 

Burger King's Global Chief Executive has told students in Chicago, that in the UK the food is terrible and the women are not very attractive (I was curious as to where in the UK he had actually been??) It seems Warwick was the answerer (when he was at university there) Never having been there, I can't comment on his opinion.

 I'm Not Sure about Warwick 

But Liverpool Has Some Stunner's!!

More on useless New Labours money wasting contracts, this time £17,000 spent last year on watering NHS HQ's pot plants, that works out as £140 per a pot plant (madness) if the office workers can't water them themselves, then remove the pot plants from the offices. The over priced contract was negated by surprise, surprise New Labour. I watched the Final of the American Apprentice, then had some fun chatting on Twitter with @ClareAtCan (A spoof of Claire at CAN Associates) & then went to sleep (Calories consumed 1,576)


Tuesday 15th March, I dreamt I had moved into a house with big roomy rooms, the kitchen was very large & the big kitchen table had left over food on it from former tenants, pizzas etc people who seemed to be helping me move in were picking at it. So I threw it away to stop them, as I'd seen flies landing on it. But I kept fridge that was in the freezer and still fresh, the house was in London & I thought, 'Wow I'm back in London again, that's going to make auditions & getting a job easier!!' I had 2 Irish Wolfhound dogs and some other dogs (can't recall their breed) and a cat which was very affectionate to the dogs, washing their faces. I also had a donkey & rode it up and down the road I lived on briefly (god only knows what that is all about!!) Woke at 9.30am in a lot of pain due to neck.shoulders & back I have another Acupuncture session at 5pm hope this has some affect it's not had any recently.

Another bright day out, put a green/blue wash in the machine, had a wash put on some make-up then headed to the shop for some milk & a paper & then had some Alpen for breakfast. Watched 'Loose Women' took the blue/green wash out of the machine & hung up to dry & put in a black wash in to wash. Did a job search Nothing New that I'm suitable for today, so I checked the New Auditions on StarNow, and I applied for 11 New ones. Then I watched 'The Real Housewives Of Orange County' (I love ALL the Real Housewives Shows!) Other than jealousy I don't know why the other housewives are so unpleasant, to the lovely housewife Gretchen? She is lovely, she's my favourite & they really give her a hard time! Her Blog can be found on my Blog List, to the right!! ------->

 

The Lovely Gretchen

I had a home made ocean pie with cod & king prawns for lunch & I had it with a green salad, very tasty even if I do say so myself. I then popped to boots and got some MaXfactor foundation, with the last of my Vouchers (as only foundation I have at mo, is for when I'm tanned in summer) I'm so pasty at mo, I haven't even got under my sun-bed in ages! (maybe I should, it might ease my neck pain!) Then I went up to my doctors for my much needed acupuncture session, it really hurt when the needles went in today (probably due to the fact there is so much stress in my body) 

My right hand side of neck & shoulder & right arm were pulsating painfully when the needles were in this time. I got home, hung out my black laundry & put a white wash in. Then set to the washing up The kitchen floor badly needs mopping again, I decided I'd either do it later if my arm/shoulder/neck pain dies down or Thursday or after filming tomorrow! Caught a Clip of myself in a show Ad for this weeks OMG on ITV2 at 9pm

I messaged my friend Simon Cole (who use to be in Hollyoaks) to say I was filming in London tomorrow & did he want to meet up with me & Ian after for a catch up drinkipoos? As he is back over here from the USA for a bit, where he has been working on his career as a Country & Western singer. He said he was in the UK but not in London until Saturday & was I around then? I said it depends on if I had any filming then, if not we'd catch up soon, anyway as he is here for a while! Watched 'Home & Away', the best soap on UK TV. 

My Friend Simon & I In Piccadilly Circus

Then I made dinner, a marinated grilled Quorn fillet with green salad, 6 cherry tomatoes, 4 pickled onions & a small packet of McCoy's cheese & onion crisps, followed by an apple. I did the washing up, then watched 'EastEnders' (depressing as always) then 'Lion Country' (Brilliant as always) chatted a bit online then I watched 'Lilly Allen: From Riches to Rags' quite ironic as the weekend before last when my brother had badly upset me, I got it out of my system by singing her song 'Fuck You' (click on title to hear song, with music video) Singing it on repeat, on the top of my lungs, definitely helped!!......

Watched the 'Big C' that made me think of my Aunt again. Then 'Snog Marry Avoid?' It makes me laugh how the show is all about natural beauty, yet it's presenter Jenny Frost with her dark roots, fake tan & bleached/veneered teeth is totally fake & not natural. Then 'True Stories: Marilyn, the Last Sessions' I have loved Marilyn Monroe since a I was a small child. Read The paper A single 37yr Truck Driver Matthew Breach won £17.8 Million on Lotto rollover (wonder how many gold diggers start hitting on him?) Apparently Peaches Geldof shoplifted a £70 dress (obviously wanted an OMG headline)

There was a pic of some boots, that looked like horse hooves, they are a limited edition, zip up design, in both long & ankle length selling at £1,300 at The Cheltenham Festival, with the profits going to charity. Odd as it sounds other than the price, the only thing I don't like about them is, the black zip against the cream boot. If it was cream I'd like them, and wear them, even if some people would think I looked a little foalish!! Ideal for Ascot Races lol. I went to bed at 2.45am (Calories consumed 1,518)

Wednesday 16th March, I woke at 9.15am, put on the TV & had a wash, had a Golden Syrup Oat So Simple & a coffee for breakfast, then went & washed my hair! I massaged Satura Pro into the front of of my scalp, then piled hair up with a bulldog clip, while I did my make-up subtle aqua eyeshadow, with smokey grey smudged liner, and caramel lip-gloss, then dried my hair with a full fringe & then pulled up into a high ponytail with wisps at the side framing my face & added my faux long curly ponytail, over my own, as they asked me to come in character as "The Cougar". 

It was 'Very Cold' again today! So I went in 'Winter Cougar' attire as opposed to 'Summer Cougar' attire (Slinky dress & heels) So it was the Peacock Green, Jane Norman, Jersey/Satin blouse, over black studded leggings, under long black boots, with aqua Jacques Vert jacket on top, with diamanté jewellery. Packed my Moschino Shopper with The sun paper, to read on the journey, 2 diet cokes & a couple of packet of crisps (In case I got hungry & thirsty out!) Plus my electric blue pashmina, just in case I'm still not warm enough! 


My friend Kathryn (check out her Beauty Lovers site on my blog list, to the right of this blog) said, that there was a whole bit on a Sheffield woman, who has trailed Satura Pro with one of the TV Execs at ITV (like I am) with amazing results, on 'This Morning' around 11.30am today. But that was too late for me, to be able to watch & ensure I got to my filming of 'Is It Just Me' Pilot on time, at 2pm. Despite how vile my brother was to me, the other weekend, I still text him to say, to 'Watch This Morning at 11.30am if at home & possible, as there was a product I'm trialling on there, that may be very useful to you & is available via a local Sheffield woman on there!' Of course he didn't reply & I have no idea if he watched or not? But at least I know I wasn't petty & at least, tried to show him something, that could be of use to him, whether he chose to watch it or not! I made myself a veggie sausage & boiled egg sandwich, before I set off, as I didn't know when I'd next get to eat probably, 6 or 7pm if I'm lucky


I set off at 11am in my long black coat, drawing out £20 to pay the £15 travel fare with & at the station I got a receipt for the 1-6 Zones Travel Card part of my journey, to be reimbursed by Endimol. I caught the 1st London train, a stopping one, reading the paper en route. I arrived at Kings Cross & got the Hammersmith & City tube to Edgeware Road & walked the long route down the Edgeware Road, then up Frampton Street, right down Capland Street, then on to Gateforth Street, to The Cockpit Theatre. I got there bang on 1.50pm & was given my release form to sign. Moments later Bob called me on my mobile, I said I had just arrived & he said he was just parking up, and did I want him to find a coffee shop & bring me a coffee? (Bobs such a gentleman, sweetheart!) I said no need there was a coffee bar, just off the foyer in the Cockpit Theatre, he said he'd see me in a tick, I said I was just popping to the ladies & I'd see him in the foyer. 

 The Cockpit Theatre Coffee/Bar Area

I exited the ladies to see Bob filling in his release form, then we retired to the foyer bar area & Bob bought us both a coffee and a double brandy chaser to warm us up! We were chatting for a bit, when we saw the little (about 4ft 10") American woman, from when we did the tour of Essex with Jack Whitehall & Denise Van Outen, was sat opposite waving. She Joined us at the bar, we'd found out last time, that she use to pole dance in a club in Vegas & that her dad was a Mafia Hotel/Club owner in Vegas, & that she fled to the UK after a Mobster attempt on her life (have yet to discover why!?) Where she got shot, she has fake boobs & was planning more work soon. While chatting in the Foyer Bar, we further discovered she was actually a well known USA 'Porn Star' (That perked Bob up lol) She was telling us about working with USA Porn Star, Ron Jeremy & was showing us clips on her phone!! She got Bob & I to pose for a pic with her (she is tiny) & we looked like giant minders either side of her! She said she would add us on Facebook & tag us in the picture.


The foyer was really filling up & I was feeling quite hot & sweaty, when eventually our bunch of 50 were called. Again I am not going to give you more than scant details of  what Endimol's show 'Is It Just Me?' is about. Even though there was some mention of it in Sundays NOTW (Despite it not being commissioned as of yet!!) So as not to spoil it for you when it's commissioned & is shown on Ch4 (Which after what I saw today, I am most certain it will be, as it was bloody hilarious!... I haven't laughed so hard in ages!!) I will tell you the host is Comedian Rhod Gilbert, best known for his stand up on subjects such as Bedding (Which you can view Here) or a Torch With The Power of A Million Candles (Which you can view Here) Who is very funny & was suffering with a bad cold, so had a Vick's inhaler up his nose a lot!! 

 Rhod Gilbert

Next to him is a panel of 4 comedians/quirky celebs. Then there is a wall of the 50 (This is where Bob, The Porn Star & I came in) Think of BBC1's 'Test The Nation', a wall of typecast/pigeon holed public, except instead of being a group of type, like in 'Test The Nation' the 50 are an assortment, such as (Essex girl, Boob Job, Cockney Bob, Cheeky Chappie, Yummy Mummy, Just some Bloke, Computer Geek, Life Coach, Gym Bunny, Cougar etc) The wizard guy that was on 'Take Me Out' on the Saturday I was upset by my brother, was one of the 50 too! Then there is a studio audience. 


When we (The 50) were called upstairs en mass, we were given the run down, of the pilot run through. And given out badges, 'Cougar' for me, 'Cockney Bob' for Bob, 'Yummy Mummy' for 'cougar' Ruth (Who was also there) & oddly 'Boob Job' for our Porn friend, rather than Porn Star!?  We had just 5mins to pee before we went into studio. So I quickly popped down to the ladies in the foyer. Through a group of people that were to be the audience. A group of young guys (Late teens to mid 20's) let out an amused murmur, amid the word cougar, with a giggle, after obviously clocking, my Very Large badge. Back in the holding area the 'Cheeky Chappie' said to Jay "Are we going to be sat in coordinating groups? like The Cheeky Chappie & The Cougar?" Giving me a sideways glance & a raised eyebrow, causing all of us to burst out laughing! Then we headed down to the studio.


Bob, the Porn Star & I were sat at the front, of one of 'The 50's' sections, that faced the comedians/celebs & the audience. Each of 'The 50' also had a handset with a Yes or No button, plus a Red & a Green card, the celeb/comedian panel had a Yes & No handset too, plus a light in front of each that could go either Red or Green (But to know why, you will just have to wait for that show to come out!)

Today's Comedy/Celeb panel was an inspired mix, Comedian Jarred Christmas, Comedian Holly Walsh, Actor/Presenter Joe Swash & Funny Presenter/DJ Iain Lee. 

 Jarred Christmas

 Holly Walsh

 Joe Swash

Iain Lee

The warm up guy interacted with me, the Porn Star & some of the audience & we had some banter, at one point he asked me "As a  Cougar what do you do to attract a younger guy?" I replied "Watch ITV2 at 9pm tonight & you will find out!!" He pulled out a young lad of about 21-23yrs with a student like bum fluffish beard, saying how about him? (I think he may of been one of the young group of guys in the foyer, when I went to the ladies) I said "He's quite cute, but I don't like beards!!.... but I guess I could straddle him & shave it off!" The warm up guy said "That sounds like a Rapist not Cougar!" I smirked & then waggled my right palm, side to side & joked "Hmmm the the two are quite close at times!!"


The Show started & so now, I can't tell you much, except, it was hilarious. I haven't laughed so much in ages, Jarred Christmas did something, that involved a video tape & a flashers Mac, Holly Walsh did something very unpleasant orally with Rhod, Joe messed about with a young boy & Iain told his old work mate of 12+ years, over the phone, that they'd grown apart & it was best they stopped meeting up & deleted each other's phone numbers! That was quite uncomfortable to watch & I was (& still am) in two minds about whether it was real or not? but what I will say is if he was faking, he has a 3nd career in acting looming, as his reaction & tentativeness to person on phone, his interaction with Rhod during & also interaction with fellow panel after, was very convincing!! 

I can also say Joe was very intrigued by the Porn Star & I (both with our boobs & as to whether we worked together!! Once he knew that she was a Porn Star) He even said to the Porn Star, Bob & I "Are you 3 together & can I join in!!?" He was also intrigued 'Surprise, Surprise' by 'Pretty Girl' & 'Essex Girl', Iain Lee also interacted with us a bit & one of 'The 50' (The Welsh Guy) said I was abnormal being a Veggie, and seconds later as the convo moved on. I kicked myself for not saying to The Welsh Guy "Well you don't expect me to eat Lamb, after you Welsh buggers have been shagging it do you??" (Damn it coming to me, seconds too late) There is also a 3 person, story choice, with the chance for them to win 50grand. Plus The 50 will be a permanent weekly panel. More than that I can't tell you, or it will spoil the novelty of a brand new show for you, but its good ohhh so good!! 


We wrapped at about 5-5.30pm & Bob rushed to his car to check the metre hadn't expired & I rushed to get my coat & bag, ready to collect my £8 towards expenses. Bob came back in as he still had 5mins left & we got chatting to funny but charming, Iain Lee. Though at one point he said to me  "Sorry but I can't help staring at your breasts!" Which wasn't his fault, as in 'Cougar' attire they were pretty apparent & Iain is so tall that, looking down to talk to me (despite me being, a tall girl myself) The Girls couldn't help but be in his eye line!! Bob & I looked for the 'Porn Star' to get her Facebook name to add her & get pics she took. 

But we couldn't find her, so Bob had to rush off, before he got a ticket & I headed off, as I was heading out the door, Ian Mann called me on my mobile, saying to meet him in Piccadilly before heading home. So I jumped on the Bakerloo line to Piccadilly & met up with Ian, at around 6-6.30pm, Ian was a bit peckish, so we popped into 'Yo Sushi'. Fresh Sushi but at 'rip off' prices, two 50p size round pieces of Sushi & 2 coated orange segment sized bits of pumpkin & a glass of water for £7.85, when you can get a tray of 8 pieces of Sushi in Tesco's for £3.99 or less!!!

Yo Rip Off

We chatted for a bit & I told him how funny 'Is It Just Me?' was, then we headed off to Ku Bar for a drink (1pnt Cider) & then onto The Retro Bar (Another Pint of Cider) where another guy said I reminded him of Catherine Tate (Yet again!!) Does a look alike career loom? The bar was pretty packed for a Wednesday & we sat on stools, at a kind of DJ area & it looked like I was sat behind a bar & Ian took a picture. 

9pm came (When the Cougar edition of OMG was starting with me on it) Then my phone went crazy with texts, lots from Nicky & one from my friend Alan (One of Sid Jameses sons) Saying "  U looked Amazing on OMG well done June"   Which made me think, 'maybe it wont be too cringe worthy then!' 

Ian & I chatted to the barman for a bit, then at around 9.30-10pm Ian Jumped on his night-bus & I got my tube to Kings Cross & then my train home & managed to get home in time, to catch myself on OMG on ITV2+1 & cringed when the 'world peace' line was left in, the camera was also shooting from below, when I was stood on the stage (not the most flattering of, up the nostrils angles!!) But I was reasonably amusing, plus got the most camera & talk time of the cougars & name checked, so might get something out of it. 

But wont hold my breath as the show is such a dud!! I had another veggie sausage & egg sandwich as I was famished, then eventually crashed out at 1am, after reading Facebook & Twitter messages about me on the show (Calories Consumed 2,383 WHOOPS!!)


Thursday 17th March, woke at 8.30am, had a odd dream, where I had moved home again, to a big house. I was out somewhere with my Mother & my Brother and they said "wait there a sec" & then went off somewhere. I was stood for ages alone & it got cold & began to snow on me, in the end I went into an entrance to shelter & keep warm thinking 'They know my mobile number, if they need to find me!' But when I stepped inside, I discovered it was a shopping mall & as I wandered around, I saw my mum & brother sat in a cafe in the mall, drinking coffee & eating cake, laughing, surrounded by bags of shopping. I was stunned & thought 'How could they say wait a minute, then go off shopping & having coffee & cake knowing they have, left me out in the cold? How could they just abandon me like that?' I couldn't believe my mum of all people would do such a thing, it was so not her!... Got up had a wash got on the scales I have gained 1 1/2lb (That will be all the bread & crisps yesterday!)

Had some Golden Syrup Oat So Simple & a coffee for breakfast. Scraped my hair back in a pony tail & wore what I wore on OMG without the hat & accessories! Slapped a neutral make-up on & popped to shop to get a Sun newspaper. Got back in, collected my dry laundry off the radiators & separated it in 2 piles (1 put away & 2 iron) I put away the put away pile, then decided to hang my 18" Beehive wig upside down, as on the wig head stand, it is shrinking lower & poofing out wider! 

Santander have finally sent me my online banking details, or rather they have finally arrived (thanks so much Royal Mail!) so I can now log into my account (the years backlog of bank statements, never arrived as promised though, so I guess I will have to trawl through it all online now!!) For regular readers wondering...... NO my keyhole surround, has not been put back on my door yet, after being promised to be done, about 4 weeks ago & despite the fact, that it's almost been a year, since the inept maintenance guys, of my letting agency painted the door and removed the keyhole surround & NO after eventually putting a sealant on my window ledge, it still hasn't been painted! Useless Arseholes!!.... I HATE INEPTITUDE!!!


Had lunch of 2 marinated Quorn cutlets, (cooked then allowed to go cold) with a green salad, 4 cherry tomatoes, 4 pickled onions & some coleslaw. With a mini pack of cheese & onion crisps on the side. Did the Washing up then hoovered the lounge. Then I had to re organise, the back room, after it got messed up a bit after searching through things to get to my Hat Box, for my photo shoot with Automatic Weapons, for Award winning photographer, Philip Gatward. Last week, that was fun, but boy are those Automatic Weapons heavy!! I will post pics when I get them in about mid May!


Watched the 'Real Housewives Of Orange County' did a bit of plant watering & took out some rubbish & then it was 'Come Dine With Me Time' then I caught up with Yesterdays 'Home & Away' that I missed while out, on Channel 5, then today's on Fiver, then it was dinner time so I had Grilled marinated Quorn fillets with green salad & sun dried tomatoes with feta & apple for dessert & Diet Coke, Then watched EastEnders (depressing as always!!) 

I then watched the unpleasant Yorkshire Villagers on 'Love Thy Neighbour' bitch about two new pairs of contenders for the cottage in their village. An awful bunch of bigots, that should keep any UK tourists from their village. this week it was a dull couple versus a druid couple (who are friends with the guy, who was dancing half naked on Louie Spence's Showbusiness) Talking of which, most of the people I know, have stopped watching it. As they said it got boring and repetitive. So if I am on again (I wont hold my breath, as it seems they only want losers, to laugh at) I wont know.

Then I watched 'Chuck' & 'The Mentalist' while writing this blog. Then I watched the amusing, animated, The Ricky Gervais' show, had a decaf coffee. 

My Manager @ClareAtCan

She's Gonna Make Me A Big Fat Star!!

Then I chatted for a bit on Twitter, @ClareAtCan & I had a bit of rapport going & It was now playing out that I was her new client & I'd received the Contract on KFC scented paper, which I signed in Mayo & Mustard. Which I sent back to her in a Kebab envelope, in a cab along with the deep fried contents of my fridge (including the deep fried fridge itself) as stipulated, in the said contract. In return I was sent a crack pipe & a self harm manual & told to be in an abusive relationship by Mon for the paps on Tues lol, eventually went to bed, to sleep at 1.30am (Calories consumed 1,376)


Friday 18th March, I had a dream about living in some house, and my mum & dad were there and it was my birthday & I accidentally found my present mum & dad had got me, it was a kit to make about 10 pairs of ugly lace gloves (by hand) that you then sell to raise money for charity. I was a bit disappointed, but said nothing. I went out with mum down the high street & I was talking to mum about looking for work & we stood still a moment, I was saying, how  it was really hard, to get a interview for a beauty retail job, at the moment, despite being highly qualified for one & said I really needed to get a job with a large Dept Store, as they paid better than smaller chemists like 'Boots' & 'Superdrug' As I said that a guy behind me said "That's a shame I was about to offer you a job" I turned round to see we were stood outside of 'Boots' & the MD was behind us... oops!! I quickly said "No don't go, wait, I want a job what is it? I can start straight away!!" I went into the store with him but by the time I woke at 8.30am I still had no clue as to what the job was to be or the wages!

Got up had a Golden Syrup Oat So Simple, for breakfast and did the laundry (a black wash) made a coffee & popped to the shop for a paper (Still no news of the death of the Crossbow Cannibal yet, sadly) I watched a bit of morning TV, while doing my job searches & applying for jobs & also for auditions, then once I'd done that, I re manoeuvred my large cheese plant in the living room & tied up some of the leaves, as to not hang over the sofa & watered my plants. My Orchid has at least 8 flowers on it at the moment. Then I fixed lunch, a roasted Quorn steak, with sun dried tomatoes stuffed with feta, 4 pickled onions & some coleslaw, with some salted crisps on the side, washed down with a Decaf Diet Coke. 

A guy called P*** Rambo was chatting me up on Facebook saying he saw me on OMG & was hassling me to add him (I only usually add those I know) He kept going on saying to add him, adding that  "He's a nice guy!!" (My normal thinking is, if you need to tell someone your a nice guy, your probably not!!) But as he was friends with fellow OMG Cougar Brigitta & Heidi (also on Take Me Out) & he seemed chirpy enough, I gave in. Even though, he so wasn't my type & was coated with Tattoo's all over him (which I'm so not into!) We had a bit of a chat, in between long gaps in conversation, during which time he'd clicked 'like' on a few of my pics. I chatted a bit & briefly looked at his profile & a couple of pics, he looked like, Mr fun, party guy! All chunky Rugby muscle type & coated with tattoo's, his surname is obviously fake & no info on profile, as to if he's single married etc, plus no info re work, he seems to be living up North Yorkshire way. 

From his Pics I would imagine he works in a bar, or club, or as a doorman. When I asked him what he did, he said he worked with disabled kids, but when I talked of an incident, I had while working with disabled kids, he never told me any working with kids story back, which made me suspect it was Bull Shit & only said to make him seem caring & deep! Anyway at some point, later in the evening, when bored, I decided to click on his profile & have another look, to suss him out & it was set to private again as he'd deleted me as a friend WTF?? I tweeted 'why would someone beg for an add & then a few hrs delete you?' The common consensus among the guys who responded to my tweet was, that he was a 'Wank Bank' collector..... 

Apparently, these guys get you to add them, then they trawl through your pics, copying all those they consider wanking material, then if they get that your not the kind of girl, who is going to flirt back with them & get dirty online maybe even have webcam sex, they delete you, as they have what they need for their next Wank!! How Fucking Sad!! Well he did ask 'What would I do to him, if he had been in the OMG audience, when I was on there as a cougar?' I said 'The same as I did to all the other cubs..... NOTHING!.... it was just a set up bit of fun! I was not remotely interested in anyone!' Guess that meant he knew other than his stolen Wank Bank he was going to get bugger all else from me! Saddo!


Hung out black wash to dry & put a white wash in, watched 'Home & Away' then made dinner, a Tuna steak grilled with coleslaw, pickled onions & salad with some cheese & onion crisps. Its Comic Relief on BBC1 from 7pm to 2.35am, which I will be avoiding, as it's never funny & no doubt James Corden will be on, doing some self indulgent 'Smithy' shit sketch, which will just irk me! While his sycophantical tongue, is so far up celebs arses, he can lick their larynx. So instead I opted for Corrie & perving over Pierce Brosnan in 'Die another Day' while writing last weeks blog, Had a coffee then went off to bed at 1am, my neck & shoulders have been less painful since my last, quite sever acupuncture session, lets hope it gets better after my one next week! (Calories consumed 1,775)


Saturday 19th March, woke at 9.45am if I dreamt I can't recall it, got up & had a wash, then had some Oat So Simple for breakfast, plus a coffee to start the day with. Wore Dark jeggings & my over sized Grecian like draped top, massaged the Satura into my scalp & pulled hair back in a high tight pony tail! 

 In My Baggy Grecian Style Top

Popped to the shop & got a paper & a couple of decaf Diet Cokes. Then put a green/blue/lilac wash in the machine, before going on line to check my emails, Facebook & Twitter & then did my job/audition searches & applications. I had a surprise when I went into my Facebook messages, as I received one from a stranger (Lets call him *John) saying....

Hey June,

I hope you don't mind me messaging - I just wanted to say hi, that and that I thought you were great at Rhod Gilbert's panel show - you were definitely a highlight of the afternoon.Well, I took your recommendation and watched OMG (hence finding you on here), what an excruciatingly terrible hostess Peaches is!

Anyway, I hope you are well.

*John C

Which really surprised me, yet impressed me at the same time, he tracked me down quick a career in MI5 & MI6 looms!! We chatted for a bit & he seemed refreshingly normal (Most 'But not all' of those who contact me, after seeing me on TV are a bit odd!!)  We chatted for a bit & he said if he was ever down London way he'd give me a shout, & If I was ever near/in Leicester to come say hi, I said will do, we chatted a bit & he said "Come to think of it how near Reading was I?" Adding he was working there Wednesday & we could meet up for a drink, if I fancied it? I said I'd check to see if there were susses that go there, from here. Once I'd discovered it was 35miles away, it would also depend on the bus fare & my finances too as I'm broke still, we continued talking throughout the day. 

I know he was definitely at 'Is It Just Me' pilot as he spoke of things only someone there would know (and I'd not posted this blog) Yet his profile pic was so familiar like I'd seen it before but we don't seem to have any mutual friends Odd? I then did some online surveys. Mikes sink has sold on eBay, so once the money has gone into my paypal account & then into my bank, I'll pay him the money!

Quite nice out, so cleared some of the litter off of my courtyard that the bin-men & locals have dropped all over it (lots of it all over my plants) Did a bit of weeding, will do more later when its more warm, my daffodils are out now & some of my mauve plants (Erysimum) that I got from mums garden, so ironic the name ends in Mum. Did a load of housework listening to Capital Radio, then stopped to have lunch, Quorn & lentil salad, a Diet Coke & a chunky KitKat. Then read the paper, 

Hung the laundry out to dry, did some more housework & the washing up then watched 'Harry Hills TV Burp' then made dinner a thin crust vegetable pizza, with a Diet Coke, then it was the final 'Take Me Out' There was not any blokes I'd go for on tonight. I did the washing up, then it was 'CSI Miami' time & 'Stand Up For The Week' then I realised I'd missed the brilliant 'The Tudors' Shit!! Then I continued writing last weeks blog, desperately trying to Catch Up! I had a decaf coffee & some Branston mini Cheddars as I had the munchies watched 'The Ricky Gervais' show. I then did more of my blog & had a bit of a giggle with @CatFunt_ and @ClareAtCan on Twitter before, applying Satura Pro to my scalp & Satura Rosta on my lashes & crashing out at 2am (Calories Consumed 1,839)

Sunday 20th March,  I fell asleep about 3am & was woken at 4am by my mobile going off, the persons name was not in my phone (though it may have been in my damaged one!) & whoever they were, was chatting with someone & they had obviously sat on the phone & had bum dialled me. I kept saying "Hello!!"  but they obviously were oblivious, to me, so I hung up & eventually went back to sleep. I woke at 10am can't recall any dream, I got up, had a bath & massaged Satura Pro onto my scalp, then slipped on a electric blue, velour, lounge suit & my TrimSoles, then popped to the shop to get my NOTW & looked at The Sunday Mirror, as TV Kev told me he was mentioning the cougar convention on OMG, I laughed when I read it. Got in & chilled with the paper a bit.


I had a cheese & coleslaw sandwich with some Twiglets & a Diet Coke for lunch, then cleared more crap off my courtyard, that had amassed over night. I found I had a message on StarNow from a film company, wanting to know if I can come for an audition in Feltham Tuesday? For a role NOT an extra, that will film April-May for £120 a day? The Character they want me to audition for is Cleopatra, I really can't afford the £15 fare, especially as I need to come into London for the premier of 'Losing It' (which I'm in) & to meet the backers who, will be backing the other film, 'The Fortune Teller' which Angus sent me a script for (for me to play Felicity) 

 Losing It!!

But can I really afford to not go? when I could get the part & earn some money (As they approached me, not vice versa, so obviously they liked what they saw, from my clips on my StarNow profile) I will have to go to Library tomorrow & print off my script & learn it if I decide to do it. I'm going to think on it over the afternoon, it's a long way to go & I have a much needed acupuncture appointment at 5pm hmmmm,  but they obviously saw something in me to contact me!? I definitely need the money too! As well as the satisfaction of having a job!

I put the situation out there, for my friends on Facebook & Twitter & they said to go for it, as there is a chance I might get it & I'd be kicking myself, if I didn't at least try. I watched 'Dancing On Ice' while writing my critique on it (you can read that HERE) Then during the break, before the results show, I made a King Prawn & lentil salad, with some coleslaw on the side, and made myself a coffee. Then watched 'Duran Duran: One Night Only' & then the 'Dancing on Ice Results Show' 

Then it was time for new TOWIE - 'The Only Way Is Essex' The Porn Star from the 'Bus Tour' & 'Is It Just Me' said Wednesday that she was in the promo video for TOWIE (A kind of English 'Hills' for you American readers) But I couldn't see her, its amusing how nice 'Faces' interior looks on the screen, but the reality when I filmed there, it's actually a tiny little dive. 

There were two New characters, Car saleswoman Gemma, who was like a Young common version of a Lobotomised Vanessa Feltz, who Kirk tried to fix up with his dad (he must hate his dad) & Chloe, a supposed Playboy Bunny (I think this Bunny has Myxomatosis!!) A freaky looking stick insect, with fake boobs, with teeth like Janet Street Porter after Veneers, false lashes so heavy that she can't open her lids properly, so she looks like she is squinting 24/7 & then there's the horrifically distorted, pumped up lips, that make her look like the female Gremlin from 'Gremlins 2' it's Freak City Arizona!! Lauren Goodger was as vile, and deluded as ever tho, Amy & Harry as dumb as ever, and Mark as opinionated as ever, Arge has gained 3st, but he is still the nicest & most normal of the lot!

Amy Gives 'Bunny' Chloe A Spray Tan - TOWIE

Finally finished last weeks blog & posted it chatted a bit on Twitter & Facebook, then read some of my Marilyn Monroe book, I decided I'd go to audition Tuesday, in the end, so emailed them back & got a 3.20pm time slot, I will print off my lines to learn tomorrow, chatted some more to *John on Facebook, I said we'd chatted so much we might as well be Facebook friends, he agreed & so I sent him a friend request. It looks like a busy week next week, If I don't get expenses for travelling to my film audition, I may not be able to meet *John in Reading. Went to bed at 3am (Calories consumed 1,839)

Working With Automatic Weapons, So Don't Upset Me, Or I Might Take My Work Home With Me!

Monday 7th March, Woke at 8am, still with a bit of a painful Migraine hangover. I can't recall any dream, if I did dream, but then my sleep was very restless & disturbed, due to stress. I'm feeling very hurt by my brothers arrogant & ill informed words, he thinks he is so cleaver & knows how I spend my days/life but he doesn't have a clue! He is just a smug, judgemental, smart arse & obviously not that smart, as he failed to get any facts right, other than that  Karen/Andrew & Jessie didn't get a card sent! What's most frustrating is, Alex's one not turning up, after the effort I made to get it early & send it in time! 

I got ready to have my 2hr walk round the park, my head neck & shoulders are still in a lot of pain, as are my coccyx. I got changed with Lilly Allen's "It's Not Me It's You" Album on full blast with "Fuck You" by Lilly Allen on repeat, with me singing it on the top of my lungs as I dressed!! (click yellow title to hear song) Which did make me feel a lot better (despite my pounding head!) I think I am beginning (with the help of that song!) to move on from being Deeply Hurt, to just plain Fucking Angry! 

 Don't Make Me Angry

You Wouldn't Like Me When I'm Angry!!

When I told my friends, what he said & why, their choice of words for him were colourful at best! Had my Alpen  changed into black leggings and my black Petite Bateau top, pulled on my long black coat & had my 2hr walk & then got myself a comforting caramel cappuccino & went to the Job Centre & printed a few more jobs off of their machine to apply to.

Then I came home did a bit of dusting then it was lunch time, I steamed a salmon fillet & had with taboui salad & kidney bean & bulgar wheat salad, washed down with a Diet Coke. I applied to the jobs I printed off from the Job Centre, then went online & applied to more jobs while watching 'The Real Housewives Of Orange County' LOVE that show (love most of the Real Housewives shows)

Gretchen & Vicki

Real Housewives Of Orange County

Then I watched 'Come Dine With Me' then washed the inside of all my windows, I will have to see if the window cleaner, that the girl at my letting agents, gave me the telephone number of, will do the outside of mine. I have been trying for 8 years with no joy with window cleaners, as they won't do my front windows as its on a busy road. I watched 'Home & Away' applied online for several more jobs & a load of auditions. 


My beauty professional friend Kathryn emailed me to say, she had sent me off some Satura Pro to trial, which both thickens & increases hair growth. Which I'm very keen to try, as due to several head traumas (during several of my 7 car crashes *I don't even drive*) Including one where my head went through the windscreen & I received (15 stitches) in my head! Also an accident where a 3" pronged hair comb was hammered into my head, after a accident in a Jacuzzi area in a spa (5 stitches) and I slipping on black ice on the snow (despite wearing snow boots) and smashing my head near my temple open on a wall last January (3 stitches) below

If I had a G.I Jane shaved hairstyle I'd have tram lines all over my head! from all my injury's. Also Going through the Menopause early at 42yrs has also thinned my hair (which was fine to start with anyway) and being depressed & stressed over my mum has done my hair & skin no favours, over the past couple of years too. So I am curious to see if trials actually show a difference to my hair? If so I was going to recommend it to my brother, who's looks are being ruined, by the front of his hair thinning badly (but after his latest outburst part of me thinks sod him, if it works maybe I will keep it to myself & if he finds out by other means fine, but much as he has hurt me I don't think I can be as petty as him! 

 Bill Thick Hair

 Bill Thinning Hair

I did tell him the wet look, stiff gel he uses on his hair is not good for it, many a hairdresser I know, have advised guys to use putty & not a stiff gel, to get the same effect, as stiff gel, rather like stiff mascara (with no elastaine in) tends to make the stiff hair, break off at the roots, the way stiff mascara breaks off eye lashes. I told him this several times, but in typical fashion, he either ignored what I said each time, or looked at me as if I was a idiot! Even though the advice I was giving, was coming from male hair care professionals. So in the end I gave up, as he was too arrogant to listen, and so I just watched, the front of his hair get thinner & thinner! Mum & Dad had fine hair, like me, but it was never showing so much scalp like his! Anyway I digress, I will let you know how my trial of the product goes, when it eventually arrives!

I was peckish later, but not hungry enough for dinner so I had some Branston Pickle Mini Cheddars (which I'm quite addicted to) dipped in coleslaw which was surprisingly a nice combination! I sorted out clothes to wear tomorrow, as I need to be up early. Watched the Soaps Corrie & EastEnders, then Glee (yes I'm a Gleek) then Law & Order UK on ITV+1 while trying to catch up, with last weeks blog, which I'd got behind on, as my brother had upset me so much, I just couldn't write it, despite trying briefly Sunday, when I had a killer migraine. Then went to bed at 11.30pm, as I still felt rough from my migraine hangover, and I needed to be fresh, to use my brain for the quiz show run through tomorrow! (Calories consumed 1,280)


Tuesday 8th March,  I was still awake & trying to sleep when my alarm went off at 5.50am, bugger!! My sleep isn't good at the best of times, but this upset my brother has caused, hasn't helped any! I had a wash & washed my hair & made a breakfast of sugar free Alpen & a coffee. I did my make-up, dried my hair with a flicked fringe & tied hair back & added my fake curly pony tail. It's bright but quite cold out, so I wore my black studded leggings & a Deep Peacock Green Jersey & satin blouse (Mum got me it, for my Birthday, from Jane Norman, I was actually wearing it when I was at her bedside in A&E when she died in hospital) 

I packed 2 Diet Cokes & a packet of Twiglets into my bag, not knowing how long it would be, before we finished the run through or got refreshments. I popped to the shop & got a Sun paper, to put in my bag for the journey. Put on peacock green dangly earrings & my Electric blue pashmina as well as my long black coat!


I set off for the station at 8.10am & walked to the station & got the 8.20am fast train to Kings Cross, wondering If I should of got the cheaper 9am train (but as I'm getting expenses anyway I guess it doesn't really matter!) But as I have to get all the way over to Turnham Green Piccadilly/District line, it's probably best I go the earlier time, just in case knowing my luck. I was served by my normal flirty BR worker. I got the fast train to Kings Cross, then hot footed it onto the Piccadilly line. 

I was sitting on the tube when I saw that Turnham Green had red writing over the top of the station, saying Piccadilly line trains only stop at this station, during very early, or very late hours (no info on when very early ends, or very late starts Major FAIL London Underground!!) So it was either change at Hammersmith, one stop before Turnham Green & get on District line & go 3 stops to Turnham Green, or stay on one stop, to Acton Town & go back 2 stops on the District line, to Turnham Green.


I chose the latter as its 1 less stop & I didn't know how far I'd have to walk, from Hammersmith Piccadilly line, to Hammersmith District line, where as at Acton, I knew I just crossed a bridge & also, as it was only 9am it might still count as early enough to stop at Turnham Green (But apparently not!!) Bloody stupid to sail right past the stop if you ask me! London Underground pull your finger out & rather than stating very early & very late put actual times trains cease & restart at bloody stations, you twats!!! 

I got off at Acton & went over the bridge to the District line platform & waited 5mins for a train to Turnham Green. I followed directions, and turned left out of the station walked down to the lights & turned left again & High Road House, was easily found with its big green canapé outside. I'd arrived bang on 10am & went upstairs & joined my 3 kids (in their 20's) family team, funnily my family was the Joneses & Bob's was the Smith's he was the dad of his team. Bob arrived 5 mins after me & it was the 1st time I'd seen him unshaven.


It turned out that, poor Bob had been really ill over the last week, due to being exposed to the Elements on that freezing tour bus with me, in Essex (and he, unlike me, was in the warm Vajazzling for about a hr or so, while I was freezing some more, on the bus & doing my comedy bit in a field, between leaving the Beauty Parlour & getting to Faces Nightclub) I think after being very ill with Swine Flu at the start of the year, meant it made me immune from a cold/flu/pneumonia, from the extreme cold all day, while on the bus. We were given the rough run through, of how the quiz works by Rosetta the quizzes creator!! While we could help ourselves to tea or coffee from the sideboard. Then we did a couple of run trough's with show presenter Michael Underwood, which was fun as "The Smiths & The Joneses" were very competitive with each other we played like their was real cash to be won!! I was on good quiz question form despite being 36hrs with no sleep (but I was downing the coffees like a gooden

Michael Underwood

We had a 15min break, the kids went outside for a fag & Bob bought us a Cappuccino & we was chatting about how ill he was after the filming & basic chit chat. During this time I got a text from Award winning Photographer, Philip Gatward, saying he has arranged a photo shoot for Thursday & he'd email me times & any requirements before then. Then the kids came back & I told my 3, two boys & a girl my game plan, that I'd been thinking of to win! 

We went back in to play the Quiz in front of a BBC executive, a attractive Scottish guy in his 30's -40's. My game plan worked (Of Course!!) and my team the Joneses won Ta Daaaaaaaaaaaa!! The Exec seemed to like the format & maybe wanted a few tweaks (can't give you details of how it works, as its secret) I think it will be commissioned though, as its got an edge that other quizzes other than 'The Weakest Link' don't have. We finished around 2pm & Bob had to rush off as his car was on a meter which was about to run out. So I popped into a Italian restaurant next door with 3 of the quiz kids 2 girls & a guy, all 3 want to work behind the scenes in TV. I had the tomato & anchovy pizza bread starter & a Diet Coke, it was bigger than I expected for a starter. The kids had pasta dishes or chicken dishes. 

I called Daniel Brown Street Agency, while eating there, as they were only a few stops away on the tube in Battersea & they said to call for an appointment. I'd left them a email yesterday, saying I was near their office today, if they had a appointment opening between 2 & 3pm. I spoke to someone at the agency, but they had no appointments until the end of March. 

Hmmm bugger maybe on the 26th then, when I am down for the premier of the film I'm in 'Losing It'. So I paid off my bill & we all jumped on the tube. The Turkish girl who was one of the kids said "You are really intelligent aren't you I could tell by your rapid answers & broad knowledge of subjects" I said "People are quite shocked when they find out quite how knowledgeable I am, being a blonde with big boobs they expect a bimbo" We chatted about Turkish history & when I was talking to her about how the Ottoman Empire was funded to overthrow Constantine, she said "Wow I'm Turkish & even I didn't know that part of our history!" 


We went our separate ways at Earls Court & I got the Piccadilly line to Kings Cross & caught the fast train back to St Albans. I text Bob to say it was great seeing him today & I hoped he felt better soon & I'd been worried that going 36hrs with no sleep, was going to dull my brain, for the quiz questions today. But was pleased it didn't seem to! He text back " Thanks mate you was as sharp as a Stanley blade. Very Professional. See you soon x"   I replied " Thanks I surprised myself, how quick I was on no sleep!"   He text back "  I did love the way you corrected them on the tusk thing"   (referring to me pointing out that, one of the answers to their questions was in fact, incorrect as it referred to an enzyme not a material!) I laughed & replied "  I am a stickler for facts & a mine of useless information!"  

I walked back from the station up the High St, to the library & printed off my Aardvark contract & my script for 'The Fortune Teller' then went on to the doctors, just in time for my 5pm Acupuncture appointment, which is much needed, as I am still stiffer than a board! He put the needles in and my neck & shoulders were pulsating & spasming around the needle sites. But I gritted my teeth against the pain, hoping it would help in the long term. Got in & found out when I logged on, that the Zombie movie I'm in "Houseparty Of the Dead 6" is now viewable online (Click Yellow link below to watch!!)

"  Houseparty Of The Dead 6" 

Watched 'Home & Away' then fixed dinner of a kidney bean bulgar wheat salad, & watched 'EastEnders' then the brilliant 'Lion Country' with a packet of Branston Pickle Mini Cheddars, & a coffee & then crashed out at 9pm, after spending over 40hrs with no sleep (Calories consumed 1,146)


Wednesday 9th March, I woke at 8am I know I dreamt but for the life of me I can't recall it, had my usual Alpen & Diet Coke for breakfast, checked my emails. Philip Gatward has pencilled me in for midday tomorrow & wants me to be dressed up in, or to bring clothes, like I'm off to a Wedding, or a Day At The Races (That's no problem) Preferably more than one option! I will take the outfit I wore for my Birthday at Royal Ascot last year, The outfit I wore to my Brothers wedding, to Karen, a few Years back, plus a black dress & Aqua Jacket that I wore to Nat & Terry's wedding.

I mopped the kitchen floor that was getting filthy again & the bathroom floor, still waiting for Santander to send my details to bank online, so I can sort my finances, it still hasn't arrived, hope that's not another bloody thing that's been lost in the soddin post!!? Fortunately what did arrive this morning was the Satura Pro from Kathryn, which was something else to cheer me up, along with Lilly Allen!! Reading the instructions, it says you apply 15-20 drops to your scalp & rub in once, or twice daily (I'm opting for 20 drops twice daily) I will let you know of my progress. I tried it 1st thing & as my hair is below shoulders in length (so unlike a guy with no hair, or short hair) It makes my hair wet around scalp, so I have to re-style after use, or scrape back into pony tail or put on after washing hair & before drying it! Smells quite funky & herby a bit like Jaegermeister. 

Made a sandwich with wholemeal bread, spread thinly with mayo with spinach leaves, sliced tomato & sliced grilled Quorn, seasoned with low salt & ground black pepper, for my lunch. Then after watching 'The Real Housewives Of Orange County' I spent the afternoon going over my lines for "The Fortune Teller" I like that my role is both quite ethereal & comedic. Most lines are fairly easily memorable, just one part where I am incantating a spell, is a bit of a tongue twister, mouthful! Then I did some job searches & applied for a load as always (where as my brother obviously assumes, I just sit around playing with my fanny all day!!) after that I checked the audition sites for work, then went through my lines again. 

I text Chris (who I met in The 2 Brewers) That I would be in London tomorrow, if he still wanted to meet up, when I was in London? He text back at 6.26pm saying "  Is that calendar girls or something? "  I said "  No for a photographic portfolio/exhibition"   He didn't message back further, so I've no idea if that's a yes or no, and I'm not one to chase after someone for an answer. If they want to see you, they will give you an answer, if you have to hound them to see you whats the point!!  At 6.30pm I watched 'Home & Away' Then it was dinner time. I grilled a Tuna steak, and had with a skinned diced avocado, sliced cherry tomato's and 3 bean salad. Plus I treated myself to a can of K Cider & a Curlywurly to cheer myself up a bit. I then did the washing up then settled down for a bit of evening TV.

 Louisa & Adam

Adam & His Identical Twin

So at 8pm I watched the last of Beauty & The Beast, this week it was the fab twin Adam, who has been in it throughout the series, with a rather sweet, but clueless, make-up artist Louisa, it was probably the sweetest pairing of the series. Then watched the 2nd of 'Jamie's Dream School' (after checking this weeks OMG wasn't the one I was on!) I missed last weeks Dream School, but seems I didn't miss much, pretty boring & then the Biggest bore of all 'The Model Agency' I don't know why I keep tuning in, in the hope it will improve, where as it's obvious by now it wont!! 

Then I went in the back room & sorted out my stuff for tomorrow (& in doing so, messing up, my sorted back room, somewhat!!) I got my black, red & purple dresses together. My black/white court shoes & my cream satin shoes. My cream, red & aqua jackets. Then my Big Black & Big Cream hats in my big Hat-box. Plus my cream Channel style quilted shoulder bag with chain strap & my Salvador Ferragamo black handbag, plus a load of jewellery. Then I had a bath & went to bed at midnight.


Thursday 10th March,  Got up at 8.45am, after a restless night where I only got 1 or 2hrs sleep tops!! I got on the scales weight has stayed same, then I had a wash & washed my hair fixed myself a coffee & sugar free Alpen for breakfast. Today is the day I do The Modelling Shoot, with the Automatic Weapons, at 12noon, for Philip Gatward see his previous pics Here  I put the Satura Pro on the front of my scalp area where my hair is finest & weakest, and massaged it into my scalp & dried my hair, it kind of acted a bit of a styling/setting lotion, as my fringe is more full & stiffer for it. I did my make-up as if I was going to an event, and put my Annabelle's half wig in, as under such big hats, my own hair, though below shoulders, doesn't show much. 

Then I got dressed in black wet look leggings, my peacock green Jane Norman shirt, that I wore for the quiz run through, Tuesday. I wore the Aqua Jacques Vert over that, to save me carrying that too. I packed the clothes, shoes & accessories, in my big Fitness 1st rucksack (Terrorist Chic!!) As my smaller of my trolley cases, is hard to maneuver, when I have my big hat box too!...


I pulled on my long boots, my long black coat & my black sequined beanie/beret, then I set off at 9.30am, and caught the 10am train getting the fast train to Kings Cross. I text Chris while I was waiting for the train to come saying "  So are you up for meeting in London today? I will be finished from my shoot around 2.30-3pm if so when & where? So I know how much time I have to kill!?"   He replied at 10.03am saying "  I am working. Cannot just leave sorry"  which was just lame & dumb! Obviously I wasn't asking him to leave work & meet up. I asked what time & where? As I didn't know where in the city he was working, or what time he finished? I took that as a lame get out reply! But just to double check he wasn't just being dense (which he didn't seem, when we met!) I sent one final text, saying " I didn't expect you to leave work, you fool, I was asking if you want to meet where & when after your work finishes? unless your finishing at 9pm!! " 


I got to kings Cross & headed for the Victoria line, to go to Highbury & Islington where I changed for the overground to Dalston Kingsland. I then walked to Dalston Junction, where I asked for directions to Philips Studio, which were quite straight forward. By 11.45am Chris hadn't responded to my last text, so he has obviously bottled it! Oh well his loss, shame I thought he had a bit of fiery gumption about him, obviously not! I arrived at the studio phone intercom, bang on noon & at the same time as another guy, who it turned out, was also from St Albans (what a coincidence) 

As we went into the studio Philip strongly reminded me of a spitting image (but a taller version) of a photographer friend of many years ago 'David Arnold' from Panda Photographic's (They dealt in B&W photography, for advertising) His assistant Julie made me a coffee, while the guy from St Albans changed into a Doctor's blue scrubs & posed with big Automatic Weapons. A large black guy arrived who looked quite like Leiha's Maori love interest Elijah in 'Home & Away'. I chatted to him in the chill out section of the studio, while the photo session, was going on below us. When that session was over, Philip decided on the red outfit & to do some with cream hat shoes & bag & then some with black accessories. He said I'd needn't of bought the shoes, as they'd not be in shot (thats 2 lots of weight in my rucksack, I and my bad neck/shoulders could of done without, had I known)

I got changed in the roomy studio bathroom, when I came out the Elijah look alike said "Wow you look amazing I'm in Love!!" I laughed & said "Does the races/wedding guest look, do it for you then??" he laughed & said "I guess so!"  I had to pose with these huge Automatic Weapons, which would be fine If I could hold them with both hands. But I had to hold with just one hand, while holding a glass of champagne in the other. Which put a real strain on my small hands (so small I can slip children's bangles on) My arms & my already painful neck & shoulders. But I did my best to be professional & smile through the pain (While hoping that the pain & discomfort didn't show, through my eyes, or with a grimacing smile!) They tried some more with the huge weapons, but also with a Golden Desert Eagle, hanging out of my cream handbag. Now that was an amazing looking weapon, I'd of liked some snaps holding that one, it was still heavy, but not like the huge monsters I was holding!

The Desert Eagle was a bit heavy looking in my bag, so they tried with another one (not quite as attractive) Then they tried some with the black hat & bag. My forehead was pretty sweaty from the heat of the lights, the cream hat & the strain of trying to hold such a heavy weapon aloft, with just one hand (My hand/arm went dead or got cramps, on several occasions!) So my fringe was wet & stuck to my head, so I needed to sort that, before donning the black hat! Two more people had arrived during my session & had joined the Elijah lookie likey, in the chill out area, and were watching me, along with him on the viewing platform. Then we went back to the cream hat again & eventually the session was over & the Elijah lookie likey started to pose for his takes, in tennis gear, that he'd changed into during my session, while I changed back into my original attire!


I got chatting to the young blonde guy, waiting to be pictured his name was Shaun & it turned out we had a couple of mutual friends including Davey Tyler, my buddy that I did OMG with recently. We chatted for a bit while munching on a couple of slices of the tomato & anchovy pizza, that had arrived for us, and Shaun added me on Facebook. Philips assistant Julie said she would email me copies of the photo shoot in about 2-3months, once he'd decided which shots were going into his project etc, then I headed off for Dalston Kingsland station, to go back to Highbury & Islington on the Victoria line.  

Walthamstow Central, was only 4 stops from there, so I text Nat (above) to see if he was home, if I popped over to visit (As Chris had proved to be a bit of a lame duck, let down) He was, but was going out at 6pm, which was fine, as it was only 3pm. So I got on the Victoria line at Highbury & Islington & took the 4 stops to Walthamstow Central & popped to Nat's for a chinwag, chilling with a couple of glasses of chilled smoothie YUM!! I also picked up my cream gloves, that I left there ages ago (before Christmas I think, after we did their local pub quiz) Tried a bit of one of Nat's veggie burgers, that he made (very nice) chatted with Nat until 6pm. Then I headed back to the Victoria line station (Still no word from Chris, shame out of the 5 of my cougar night pulls, he was looking to be, the only promising one, looks like it may be a cross not a tick in his box too!!....... Next!!) Thankfully Nick who turned out to be married has NOT got back to me after his holiday with the family, so that saves me having to tell him, to do one!


Got to Kings Cross at 6.30pm, but as I didn't have a peak time ticket I couldn't go through the barrier until 7pm, bugger!! So I popped to Costa Coffee for a yummy Caramel Cappuccino, while I waited for 7pm to come, Jennie text to say to come over. I said I was in London & I was waiting to get a train after 7pm so I'd not be back until 8pm! She text " That's no problem see you around 8!"   Caught the 7.10pm train back got in took my half wig off & scraped my sweaty fringed hair, back into a pony tail & popped to the shop for some decaf Diet Cokes, as Jennie never has any instant decaf coffee, and grabbed a prawn Mayo sandwich & Twiglets as I was starved & there was no time, for me to make dinner!! Then I legged it to Jennies & I was there for 8pm by the skin of my teeth! Chatted a bit about this & that & watched the soaps then on came 'Love Thy Neighbour' Jennie & Edgar had never seen it before & I explained how couples were competing for a cottage in 'Grassington Village Yorkshire'. 

 

The bigoted villagers were just as unpleasant as last week. The two couples this week were a lesbian couple trying for a baby & a life model (who was almost as unpleasant as the villagers, but not quite) She went in all aggressive & guns blazing assuming that, as she was a Yorkshire lass born & bread & they were a bunch of bigots, that she'd have a fair old lead on the lesbians, vote wise, but her loud & aggressive ways & tantrums, ended up with her shooting herself in the foot & the lesbians (below) actually ending up with more votes!!

 

 Headed home at 10pm tired, got home & unpacked my attire from the photo shoot and hung them up/put them away, made a decaf coffee & watched 'Friday Night Dinner' then 'The Ricky Gervais Show' then after removing my make-up and putting on night cream & massaging Satura Pro into my scalp & using the Satura lotion on my lashes & eyebrows, I retired to bed shattered neck & shoulders aching & arms feeling like I'd done 3hrs of free weights down the gym!! (Calories consumed 2,081)


Friday 11th March,  Woke up at 8.30am I dreamt but sleep was too disturbed to recall, what about. I should have money in my account today so I should be able to write & post off a cheque to pay my Very Red Gas Bill. My rent money should clear in the next day or so, for me to be able to pay February's rent, then judging on what I have left, once I have put some food in the fridge, hopefully I will have enough left over, to post some of Bills family's Xmas prezzies (No doubt he'd accuse me of using this time, since his outburst a week ago, to buy some, but they were all bought & wrapped before Xmas & were piled up on the lounge table, when Julie & Erdal popped round to swapped presents, because there are so many of Bills family, I have to start buying early, before anyone else!!) 

I pulled on my dark size 10 jeans that are now very snug!! They use to be so loose I could take them off or pull them on without undoing (meanwhile my newer, worn once size 8 jeans, sit unloved on my wardrobe shelf!! I have to get back in the gym as soon as neck/shoulder/back is sorted!!) I wore that with my Khaki V-neck long sleeved Petit Bateau T-shirt & matching jersey cardie,  rubbed the Satura Pro into my scalp & pulled hair back into pony tail.


I had a plain 3 egg omelet for breakfast and a Diet Coke, then I popped to the shop for milk & a paper, and popped my cheque to EDF in the post, then when I got back indoors I washed the breakfast plates/dishes from today & yesterday, then went online and applied to some more jobs & auditions. While listening to 'Loose Women' & 'The News' then I grilled some Tuna & cubed it & had it in a wholemeal pitta pocket, with salad, plus some Wotsits on the side. I hoovered the hall, back room, bedroom & stairs then settled down with a coffee & chunky KitKat to watch 'The Real Housewives Of Orange County' oh to have such a glamorous life in such good weather! Then for the rest of the afternoon it was back to sorting through old papers & paperwork & throwing out the trash!

Made myself a spicy cottage pie with Quorn mince, minty peas & lots of herbs & spices from my spice rack, with Weight Watchers mash on top!! which I had with a side salad. Went over my lines in the 'Fortune Teller' script that I'd been sent, then watched some TV, the usual soaps then 'The Mentalist' 'Friday Night Dinner' 'NCIS' then I finished off last weeks blog, which I had got behind with, due to upset caused on the Saturday. Finished it at 2am, so I decided to wait untill tomorrow to add pics & post. I put more Satura Pro on my scalp & brows & lashes then crashed out shattered. (Calories consumed 1,550)


Saturday 12th March,   Woke up in extreme pain at 9.45am downed a load of pain killers, but it just dulled & not removed the pain. Candie text me at 12.46pm saying 'Guess what arrived returned to me in the post today?....... Your Diary with the address ripped off & opened but in a plastic bag with a label return to sender!!!! Bloody post still better than lost for good, I'll post it Monday recorded del xxx'  Unbelievable she sent me that at the start of January & it's now mid March!!! I replied 'Bloody Post round here ... my brother has no idea!!.... Why the hell did they post it back to you, if they looked at the front page of my diary they'd see my (the owners) address & could of sent it straight to me!!?' She responded 'Obs some thieving postie thought it was something valuable' I said 'At this rate all the other things I haven't received should arrive around July/August' Had a shower then had a coffee & chunky KitKat to keep hunger at bay as didn't fancy a breakfast, breakfast! 


I popped to the shop & got a paper & some Diet Cokes & posted off my contract to Aardvark, then I went down to my local nail bar, to use the last of my free manicure vouchers on an infill & polish & took a iridescent blue/grey polish for them to use! I got home & had Sweet & Sour Quorn with rice for lunch, with a Diet Coke, then went online & found had a message from my (Ex Hollyoaks) mate Simon Cole, Saying he is back in London for some time, while getting things together for his Country & Western Album, that he is launching back in LA (where he now lives) Saying we must catch up for some drinks, gossip & giggles!! Hearing Simon was over really cheered me up, and put me in a totally different mood, than this time last week! 

 Simon Cole

Practised my script some more then watched 'Harry Hills TV Burp' made dinner of  a wholemeal pitta pocket, with tuna, olives & green salad inside, with some Twiglets & Diet Coke on the side. Then watched 'Take Me Out' the last one next week & still no date for Heidi. Then I added the pictures to last weeks blog & posted it pretty much a week late .... until my brother upset me, I'd got up to date with my blog grrr! Then I started writing this blog Watched the brilliant 'Tudors' typed a bit more of this blog then, washed, brushed my teeth & massaged Satura Pro into my scalp etc went to bed at 3am (Calories consumed 1,406) 


Sunday 13th March,  Laid in until 11am, dreamt but cant recall it, had a bath massaged Satura Pro into my scalp scraped my hair back in a pony tail & slipped on my grey Juicy Couture tracksuit, & had a coffee & sugar free Alpen for breakfast & then popped to my local off licence to get the NOTW and chilled with the paper for the afternoon. I got a call on my mobile, from a woman connected to the new Ch4 Pilot for a comedy topical show 'Is It Me' asking me a few more questions & saying Jay would give me all the final details Monday, but they would reimburse Zones 1-6 of my travel (£8 of the £15 I'd be paying so just over half!) 

Then at 3pm I had a sliced Quorn & pickle sandwich on granary bread with some Wotsits & a Diet Coke for lunch, hoovered the lounge & watered the plants, then after some more job & audition applications online, I settled down to watch 'Dancing On Ice' while writing my critique on this blog. I was not best happy with the result (if you want my views click HERE ) Then during the break, before the results show, I warmed up the other half of the Quorn Cottage Pie, that I'd made on Friday & had it with some baked beans, with a Diet Coke. 

For the rest of the evening I chatted on Facebook and Twitter a bit, to my friends & also to @ClareAtCan which some would say is one of the several spoof/parody Twitter accounts that sprung up after Clair Powell had Kerry Katona's, Hilarious Parody account @CurryKatona removed from Twitter, but I would say that, actually @ClareAtCan is more real, than the real thing, as well as being eye wateringly funny! Then I watched 'Outcasts' & continued writing this blog until I crashed out at 2.30am Calories consumed 1,363)