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Sunday, November 7, 2010

Remember Remember The 5th Of November!!

Monday 1st Nov, Had a really complex but interesting dream, but I forgot to write it down, so I can now no longer recall the details, Had apple & raisin Oat So Simple with sliced banana in & a coffee for breakfast, my neck is really stiff again today, I really must book some acupuncture sessions, popped out for a Sun paper & got some free Match Attax cards in WHS, with vouchers from The Sun (will put in Nephew's Xmas stocking) and some free chocolate coated toffee's from Thornton's, with a voucher from The Sun & went to get a free 2ltr Zero Coke from Tesco's with a Sun voucher but they were sold out (surprise, surprise)


I saw the gorgeous St Bernard dog I saw when I was out Sat, spoke to the owner I thought the dog was a half grown St Bernard as it wasn't as big as most, but it turned out that she was a rescue dog that had been badly treated (awe bless) apparently she was one of 200 dogs in a breeding farm, the owner went a bit loopy & did a runner leaving the animals to fend for themselves 5 or so sadly died!! But its good to see this big soppy dog now has a happy home (all my pets came via rescue organisations) with bonfire night coming up a lot of animals are going to be spooked by fireworks this week!!




I did a load of dusting etc in my bedroom and cleaned out my make-up draw, took some pain killers as I was beginning to really ache! My friend Nicky text at 2pm saying "Xmas Market in Brogue Sat 11th Dec day trip by euro tunnel! let me know if you want to go. Limited tickets available" I had to laugh I haven't got money for Xmas presents let alone for travel to France!! I'm sure when you say your broke, people think you mean, you only have a few hundred or a few thousand in the bank, when I say I'm broke it means I have £10 - £40 in the bank tops!!.....


Sauteed some marinated Tofu & had it with watercress salad in a gluten & wheat free pitta, for lunch with the toffees I got free for desert, did some ironing and boring house chores then took a coffee break to watch Home & Away on fiver at 6.30pm, Andrea text at 8.45pm to say She was having a Red & White themed, Pre Xmas Party on Dec 3rd so to put it in my diary! Later when I felt hungry I had some macaroni cheese.


Watched The Ghost Whisperer (I have had lots of ghost experiences one day I will do a blog on them, I have a half written book on them) Then caught up on "V" which I accidentally missed last week. I think the Baddie female leader looks a lot like my niece Teresa!! See bellow....
 "V" Baddie
Niece Teresa 
Later I watched the wonderfully tacky "A Shot At Love With Tila Tequila" The arsehole Jay from Jersey got dumped & proved what a tool he was by his response, which only showed how right she was to ditch him!!


Read The Sun more about the al-Qaeda scum & their plans to use cartridge bombs to blow up cargo planes over certain western city's, we are too easy on terrorism in the UK all "proven" active terrorists should be executed, only the other day the piece of shit known as Abu Izzadeen was allowed to rant against the poppy appeal, he says Muslims are being murdered & tortured, well his suicide pals are murdering innocents off all religions & hacking off the heads of non Muslims, people like him (& I use the term people loosely in his case) cause problems for normal decent Muslims, who in some cases get the backlash caused by the actions of the fanatics, I have Muslim friends & Muslim in laws and they are disgusted by al-Qaeda & their sympathisers (who are as guilty as the perpetrators if they raise money for or do not snitch on active cell members) The fact that Many Muslim Mosque leaders, do not speak up against the terrorists smacks of cowardice or sympathisers, It seems free speech in this country, is only for fanatics spouting hate & inciting mass murder, speak up against it, and you soon find your freedom of speech quashed, and yourself called a racist!!


I remember when I was 1st looking for somewhere to move to in 2001-2002 I looked at a flat in Victoria St, St Albans, The Estate Agent let me in & the flat smelt weird kind of like a hairdressers but with a bitter under taste to the smell, I went into what seemed to be a lounge with a sofa bed and there was a large, white semi translucent, plastic, barrel that stood approx 5ft high, it was apparent the aroma was emanating from the remaining 2" deep of liquid in the barrel, it smelt like peroxide bleach or perming solution, but there was another smell I recognised but couldn't place at 1st, then it dawned on me it was the semi opaque white crystal fertilizer that was used on the dairy estate, that I use to live on in Buckinghamshire. At the time the scenario felt odd & I had a bad feel about the place, it had a bad vibe about the place & so I declined renting. I asked the estate agent, what that was? that had obviously been left behind by the last tenant, & she just shrugged her shoulder's in a blase manner, I thought "aren't you curious about what the hell your ex tenants been doing? or concerned that whatever it is, is stinking the flat out? It was only years later I learnt via the media that both peroxide & chemical fertilizer is used to make suicide bombs etc,

Lots on Xfactor gossip in papers & Now Magazine, quite frankly I couldn't care less who's in a relationship & who isn't & which housemates are getting it on BORING!! Yawnnnnnn!!! Wagner could be shagging the whole of One Direction & Belle Amie for all I care!!
Also in the papers was Deuces being burnt down, so I was wrong Sunday it was genuine (BUT they must of staged the back of the bar with bottles of alcohol for the filming) if the fire burnt the bar top, the way it looks on TV, the searing heat would of definitely made the flammable bottles of booze on the shelf behind explode!! FACT!!! I have worked in Bars & in Clubs in the past!!..... one fact left out of The Only Way Is Essex is that it wasn't just Mark Wright's Bar it was joint owned with Jack Tweedy. Police think it may be down to a Turf War between rival gangs (more likely someone with a grudge against Tweedy!!)


Tuesday 2nd Nov, had a really intense dream, that I was holding this huge party friends & boyfriend & relatives past & present was there, there were costumes & I was talking to my friends Anna & Candie, it turned out they had both been in a relationship, with the ex love of my life & was telling me the weird things he did to woo them, I thought that's so not like the man I use to know & love, what the hell happened to him to make him so odd? I was chatting to lots of people but guys kept giving me odd looks, then when I walked past a mirror I saw I had the huge lashes on I wore for Halloween. I was sat on a sofa after putting food in the oven to cook for the party & was looking through magazines that had been in a big clear zip fasten plastic envelope, I ripped out a few pages with fancy dress costumes patterns on, from a Woman's Own magazine, then I realised they were my friend Nat's magazines & thought that's not the kind of magazine Nat or I would buy, it's more for old people, wondered why I pulled out the patterns as I don't have kids & thought "I guess I planned to upscale them for adults" I took a roast dinner out of the bottom of the oven & then cup cakes out of the top half, then I woke.


Had Breakfast & popped out for a newspaper & discovered a set of dumb bells put out for the rubbish, so I had those!! Popped to Jennies for a Coffee, made a big fuss of Stanley with lots of cuddles, had a slow walk round the park & really wished my camera wasn't broken, the yellow, orange, copper & red leaves on the trees against the purplish grey sky looked stunning & would of made a great photo. Went back to Jennies again for another coffee & she said to come over Thursday night, for a chilled evening in front of the TV when Edgar goes out with the darts team to play a match, I will be back the following Thursday with flowers, for Amy's grave, (Jennie & Edgar let me bury Amy in their garden as I couldn't in my courtyard) as it will be a year on Nov 11th since she died. Jennie headed out to pick up the kids for school & I headed off to pick up more Match Attax cards with my voucher from The Sun from WHS.



Had Fajita Quorn Strips in a wheat & gluten free pitta with humus, for lunch followed with Total Yogurt with sliced banana & peanut butter in. Read The Sun & was in Tears reading about the poor, sad eyed, bear, in a filthy cage outside at a cafe, in Gabala, Northern Azerbaijan, Starving & forced to drink Cola from a 2ltr bottle, for the amusement of the cafe patrons, two days later the poor darling was dead, and quickly replaced by another one, the vile cafe owner said "we just catch a new one up in the mountains!" I hope next time he is mauled to death by one, the evil scum!!....... (video of it's torment below)


Did some more housework, still angry & hurt about the bear, I love animals & animal cruelty breaks my heart! There was a bit about a waster who doesn't want to work, in the paper yesterday, who the BBC had portrayed as a victim (like they also do to terrorists, which is why I never watch the BBC news as it is so biast & New Labour driven, news should be impartial)  James Van-Cliff quit because his weekly pay of £93 was not enough (now if his weekly rent was £150 like mine I could understand a bit as he'd need a 2nd job to pay rent & bills) but his rent was £9 a week!! BLOODY HELL!!!!!...... that's £39 a calender month compared to my £650 a calender HOLLY COW,  if my rent became £39 a month tomorrow I would think all my Christmas's & Birthday's had come at once & I'd have a job & a sense of security within 24hrs!! he is whining because his benefit is going to be reduced by £9 FFS!!!! with rent that low you shouldn't be claiming benefit you should be off your arse looking for work!! especially as he shares the flat & rent with his Girlfriend, so that's £4.50 rent a week or £19.50 a month!! My god he couldn't be in a more easy place to get work, how the BBC could portray him as a victim of the new government & their cuts (due to the BBC's darling Labour)
Poor Work-shy  James & Girlfriend
Don't they just ooze intellect & charm!

Meanwhile I have been on the waiting list for 30yrs for affordable housing & no higher up the list, as I don't have enough points to get higher up the list (which I could get by being, a criminal, a druggie or spawning a brood of illegitimate children!!!) so I have to pay private landlord rent of £650 a month & when I find myself out of work due to company liquidation, I am competing in an industry where 5000 and sometimes more can be trying for the same job, which increases with every retail outlet that goes under!! not only that, but I am limited in my options, as I need to ensure that the job will be able to cover my rent, my bills, my travel to the job, and food & other essentials, let alone enough for a treat or occasional holiday!! How the Fuck can this guy feel he is hard done by? I bet he doesn't put a dressing gown & beanie cap on over clothes indoors in winter to delay having to use the heating, or only have the lights on in the room his in, or live on porridge for weeks to pay winter bills!! makes you sick!!...


Talking of which no response from jobs I reapplied for yet, but Oaklands College did contact me, Re me doing a featured minor part for free, in their St Albans Film, but the auditions are in Oaklands in Welwyn Garden City on Nov 5th, NOT Oaklands St Albans, so not sure I can afford the fare to go? especially as I'm trying to see if I can get to Candies for her fireworks party.



Did some washing up and other household chores, then watched The Vampire Diary's. Sold another item on ebay for a few quid, so I will put in the post tomorrow. Then Chilled with the paper, and some home made salted popcorn, The Sun contained more on the scum trying to blow up aeroplanes with ink cassette bombs, ironically its Guy Fawkes Night, on Friday, when we celebrate him trying to blow up a corrupt government, in The Houses Of Parliament (rather like New Labour) I wouldn't be surprised if Scum Fanatics tried to attempt the same this Friday!!.....



Did some more job searches & sent off 30 job applications & 6 audition applications, I am betting I can count those that reply on one hand!!......watched Numbers & the brilliant Flashpoint and then crashed for the night!

Wednesday 3rd Nov, Dreamt I went to a huge club with Ian & (BB8) Jonty as guests of honour & went down a huge curving staircase into the throng, I recall Jonty getting spanked by someone & being outside later, doing something (which I cant recall) & having to walk down a pitch black path having to feel my way along, and I felt a body it didn't move or make a sound & I felt it must be dead, then I was in a house having some kind of disagreement with my brother Bill, also I seemed to be packing up stuff in a room.


Grey and gloomy out popped to the shop to get a Sun Newspaper & a few home essentials, then had a plain Oat so Simple & banana, and coffee then popped out & got my free 2Ltr bottle of  Zero Coke from Tesco with my voucher, then popped to WHS and got my free Match Attax Binder & cards with my other voucher & bought a Closer magazine. Saw the Dwarf city bin refuse collector & street sweeper that I often run into & had a chat, he has his own Facebook Supporters page bless him!! Then famished I went home for a Jacket potato & chili backed beans Yum!!


Read the sun paper and flicked through Closer Magazine, they had an article on Lauren Goodger from The Only Way Is Essex, They described her as the vulnerable one we can all relate to!!!..... Errrrrr NO!!! Not me I think she is a vile, vindictive, up herself, unprofessional, petty, spiteful, bitch!!!  who walks round like she is something special, and has a bad smell under her nose!!



She was Vile to poor Lucy I don't know if some of it was staged for the show or not (I'm guessing not, as you would not willingly agree to do, something that makes you look like a bitch, if your not!! unless your extremely stupid!!) although she doesn't come across as very intelligent to be honest!


If your pissed off your ex has moved on fair enough!! If you need to be catty (even though it makes you look pathetic!!) be catty to him, not his new girlfriend who has done nothing wrong by dating your ex!!


She has slagged off poor Lucy every opportunity she had, saying she looked like a teenager & that she is ugly (knowing Lucy will watch the show & see that, as will Mark) Lauren is jealous (or Jell if you want to use Essex speak) because Lucy is younger, slimmer & prettier than Lauren is, with her wide, flat, sour face!!


Lauren Goodger


If her actions were not staged then she was pathetic, petty & unprofessional, especially when she left Lucy off the Essex Fashion Week posters, when her designs were on the catwalk, & then, despite saying to Lucy she would keep things professional  (after a talking to by her far to lenient bosses) but then left her off of the catwalk, when she put all the other designers on the catwalk at the end, to thank them all for their fashion contributions. Also she slagged off Lucy & her clothes to Amy & Sam when she got them to model them (funny, as she liked them enough to choose them, before she knew who Lucy was....... pathetic bitch!!)


If The Essex Fashion Week bitchiness to Lucy was not staged for the show, then her bosses in the rag trade (if she really does work for them are fools!!) If I had been them I would of fired her!! (she should at the very least have got a official warning!) I have worked in the fashion & beauty industry for 30yrs as a Model, Designer, Illustrator, Stylist, Sales Assistant & Retail Manager, If I had let my private life interfere with my integrity at work in any of those positions, even once I would of been picking up my P45, If those to guys really do have a fashion business & have allowed cameras into it, then if they had any brains, they would of held a meeting before filming started, and told all staff that they represented the face of their company & at all times they should be setting a good example for the business!!


Lauren's actions could loose them customers & clients, when they see somebody with a "supposedly" high position in the firm, omit a client from advertising/promotion, exempt them from recognition & thanks publicly and on camera & slagged off their clothes in front of others just because they are dating an Ex of hers (I certainly wouldn't want them to have any of my business in case I as a client got the same treatment!) Her actions will have cost them business!!


Also in Closer mag was a article on a Swinging Gran, Carol Bone (apt surname) who has had 200 one night stands, with toyboys. I thought regular sex was meant to keep you youthful yet at 62yrs Carol looks more ancient than my mum did at 79yrs!! Proving yet again its no accident Swingers rhymes with Mingers!!.... she said she doesn't like overweight people, but she has a quite a chunky torso & belly herself on top of her thinnish legs, she looks like an old Joe Pasquali, in cheap lingerie, with a peroxide crop!! I wonder how attractive the toyboy swingers are? She makes my present over 2yrs of celibacy look positively frigid lol


Swinging 62yr Old Carol Bone


Then there was the article on vile mother Joy Watson, who lets her 14yr daughter Sophie Watson have permanent tattooed make up, drink (I grew up from 7yrs having the occasional small glass of wine with Sunday dinner or at Xmas or birthday celebrations to teach us responsible drinking as not to go crazy once at legal drinking age) go clubbing (I was allowed to from 11yrs with certain rules to adhere to!!) & put her on the pill knowing she has been having sex, (four so far!) I went on the pill at 11yrs due to having agonising periods from 9yrs & I remained a virgin (through choice) into my 20's!! Sophie is determined to become famous (a famous what, SLAG??) her mum Joy said "I laughed once when she grumbled once that she had, had a crap shag!!" adding "that doesn't make me an irresponsible mum!!" (oh yes it fucking does you stupid cow!!! you should be horrified that your daughter has racked up 4 sexual partners at 14yrs NOT F**KING LAUGHING!!) She drew the line recently though, when she found her daughter in bed with a girl & boy of the same age, but Sophie claims she "ONLY" had sex with the boy!! (oh that's OK then!!!) Sophie who is dating a 17yr old says she goes out on a Thursday night & her mum won't really see her again until Sunday!!! (yeah your not a irresponsible mum are you Joy!!!) My parents would be pulling their hair out with worry if I was 15mins over my night curfew let alone be gone for days!! Joy says Sophie is Very mature & acts within the boundaries she sets (what fucking boundaries??? that will be NONE from what I can tell!!) she use to drink 5-8 pints of larger a night, but now has half a litre of vodka a couple of times a week. She once threw up in the sink when drinking at home & the pic was put up on facebook before heading out clubbing  which her caring mother was aware of!! (my parents would of never let me get into that state at home, and wouldn't allow me to go out clubbing after being sick due to too much drink, in my 20's let alone at 14!!!) I did use to go to over 21 nightclubs at 13yrs because I looked older & I'd have enough cash for 3 rum & blacks my drink of the time, but my dad drove me there & would be parked directly opposite the exit & for the leniency of my parents, the rules were the minuet the last dance ends I was to get my coat & go directly to the exit to my dad in the car, no going off anywhere with anyone & I never did. I lived in a small village that had nothing but fields & livestock & houses, and I was into fashion & dancing, so my parents trusted me to go out & indulge in my love of dancing, but nothing else, and I never wanted to disappoint them!! Joy knows Sophie has slept with 4 boys & doesn't think it's too many as her 13yr old friend has slept with 20!!! fuck me do these young girls of today have no self respect?? (my parents would of been horribly disappointed with me if I'd slept with one guy at 14 let alone 4 & if they found out one of my younger friends had had 20 sexual encounters, they would not allow me to hang out with her anymore!) That girl will end up either dead from either booze, or drugs, before she hits her 30's or Raped/Murdered or on the game! Tragic!!


 Vile Joy & tragic daughter Sophie
Watched the inept morons on The Apprentice (if this is the cream of the crop from the applicants, what kind of useless tossers got rejected??) This week it was a fashion retail task (one I'd excel in!!) So it was a case of  who had the task sewn up & who Over-locked what was needed to win!! one collection made me laugh a dress was sold for £400 that was made from men's ties sewn together, I made a skirt out of my dads old ties when I was 16yrs old in 1980, maybe I should rake it out of my fancy dress box & sell it lol!!!


Watched The Only Way Is Essex, Harry was in his pants & shower cap having a spray tan, I knew he was thin but OMG!!! he is emaciated, he looks like a victim from Belsen Nazi Concentration Camp. That can't be healthy!! Amy's other little fat pug was on today (the black one) is probably heavier than Harry!! Lauren was as sour faced & unpleasant as usual, and Kirk his normal nice but dim self (which makes it hard to believe he owns/runs a club!) The nicest guy (even if a bit cheesy!) is Arg.




Chilled while sending off some job applications, while waiting for RuPauls Drag Race to Come on, I'd been offered an audition to be in a new quiz shows pilot, but they only pay travel expenses when making the pilot as your not paid for it, but not for audition, so I can't afford to do that at the moment.


Watched RuPauls Drag Race BRILLIANT!! ...... it was Dragmothers theme tonight, very good sadly the very funny Pandora Boxx was told to Sashay Away (I'd of preferred "The Other Tyra" to go, she is pretty when done up, but just a Beyonce wannabe, but without any of the Sasha Fierce-ness!!) I think it will be Raven, Juju Bee & Tatianna in the final three!!


 Ravishing Raven
 Juicy Juju Bee
Tasty Tatianna
Pandora Boxx, Gone But Not Forgotten


Thursday 4th Nov, Had another of my odd dreams, connected to TV & party's again. I'm having a better social life in my dreams than in reality!!!...... Woke with a rough sore throat, knew it was coming (despite trying to avoid it with warm clothes & scarfs) I popped out to the post office to send off a parcel & popped into WHS for some more Match Attax cards, & popped to see Aku & give him some fuss & a cuddle, as the fireworks going off are scaring him, as he sleeps outside in a kennel, I'd have him round mine (even though I'm not allowed to have my pets here) this week but I'm going to be out Friday night at Candies Firework Party, when most will be setting off fireworks round here & I have lots of breakables that could get ruined if he went a bit crazy due to fear of the noise, or wee'd or poo'd in my flat due to fear!! or ripped up soft furnishings, if I was home at the weekend I would of stolen him away to be with me, I'd hate to think of him being scared! so he got lost of kisses & cuddles.


Went home made a hot toddy (JD, lemon juice, honey & hot water) to soothe my throat & clear blocked sinuses &  bought some lockets to suck on, also went to buy a Now Magazine & saw they were doing a 2 magazine offer, so I bought that & when I got in I found the other mag was Woman (which is a bit like woman's own in my dream, I'll laugh if there is a dressmaking pattern in it that I pull out!!) had some pea soup for lunch then made a big batch of my Spicy Winter Warmer Soup, with lots of Chili, Ginger & Garlic in, that should hope attack my sore throat/cold germs!!!


Around 6pm Fireworks started going off, already? I thought & then realised it must be Diwali today, that always gets a lot of fireworks set off round here over the past 5yrs (guess the Asian population in St Albans has increased over the past 5yrs) thought of poor Aku I hope there is not any going off near him, poor baby.



Had some of my homemade soup (very good) then went round Jennies for a chilled girly night in front of the TV, while Edgar played darts, Watched Drop Dead Diva & Nikita (think Living is one of the few stations I'd consider paying for if I had the cash) Then I watched Celebrity Juice which was excellent this week but I was shocked to discover Jennie had never seen it before!!! I guess she is out watching Edgar play darts most Thursdays.


Went home after a coffee when Edgar got home, and watched True Blood (it just keeps getting better!!) Read some of The Sun Paper, this country is way too soft Police allowed Islamic's to protest over attempted murderer, Roshanara Choudhry


Friday 5th Nov, despite not falling asleep until some time between 7-8am I was awoken at 9am by a screaming brat, kicking off about having its haircut downstairs & he continued to screech on the top of his lungs for at least 15mins, obviously not wanting his hair cut. What the hell was his parent doing? I would of got a slap or at least the threat of one if I'd shown my dad up in public like that!! I was tempted to go downstairs & wring the brats neck myself!! Throat so sore & voice gone there is no way I'm going to be able to do that audition in Welwyn today, even after another hot toddy & locket lozenges. Got some sad news by phone at 10am meaning I definitely wasn't going to be able to make it, I was just about to text the Oaklands student when he text me, I replied I was unable to come explaining why, then popped out to see a friend.


The sky has been dark since 10am, looks like today will be an eternal evening, also its piddling down with rain outside, hope that doesn't put a dampener on Candie & Costa's fireworks....... packed an overnight bag for Candies & made a jacket potato with homemade ratatouille on it for brunch.


My Aussie soldier friend who is moving back to Australia soon (now his tour of duty in Iraq is over) is meant to be coming to stay the weekend (arranged weeks ago) but he hasn't been in contact recently, so I bet he has forgotten (and I'm not the type, to chase after a man to see whats happening, I always work by the rule of never letting a man become your priority, while allowing yourself to be his option!!) If I'm not important enough for him to remember, he is not important enough for me to hang about for or to remind!


Washed & dried hair though don't know why as it will be ruined by the rain & wind, did a smokey eyed with pail pink lips make-up. Wore capped sleeved, cowl necked, military styled, black, sweater dress, with a long sleeved black T-Shirt underneath, with thick black tights, and knee high KG pull up boots, put my black sequined knitted beanie/beret in my big black sequined shopper bag, Pulled on my Cream Cashmere Tommy Hilfiger Coat & grabbed my Black & white Versace umbrella & headed into town in the pouring rain at 4.20pm popped to WHS to get some more free Match Attax cards, then waited for the 712 bus to London, it was due at 5pm but arrived at 5.15pm due to traffic, then changed at Brent Cross for a 102 to Muswell Hill. London to my surprise unlike St Albans, was not chucking it down with rain!!


I got to Candies at 7pm & was greeted by an excited Xavier, and an equally excited Costa showed me his huge array of Fireworks for the evening (think he may put an organized event to shame, think he has enough to blow up the houses of Parliament) chatted to Candie in the Kitchen with some Mulled wine as I was the 1st to arrive.  Candie asked if I'd be spending Xmas with them? I said "Yeah if that's OK & your not going to be in Torquay" She said "Yeah I just thought maybe your sister or brother might of asked you to spend it with them" I laughed & said "There's no chance of that happening!!" soon after Candie's Policewoman friend Jenny arrived, with her two boys, then some more neighbours shortly after.


 Jenny


I had some more mulled wine (good for bad throat) Nat & Terry arrived & I caught up with the gossip & what had been happening with them, had some of the cheese, salad & pesto pasta from the buffet Candie had prepared, with some red wine. Chatted to Nat & Terry about the fantastic Season 2 of RuPaul's Drag Race, we think Raven is very much like, the fabulous Shannel from Season 1.


 Raven
Raven
 Shannel
 Shannel
Shannel

Candie's Film making next door neighbours arrived, and also her soon to be divorced neighbour & his two kids (one boy, one girl) Despite bagging herself a new man in France, Policewoman Jenny (who is soon moving to France, with her kids near the Swiss boarders) set the soon to be divorced daddy in her sights & it was a master class in seduction, as she cock blocked him, and manipulated him into being in parts of the house away from other people, with a lot of touchy feely rubbing of his arm, leg, waist as they spoke!! The only fly in the ointment was his daughter (older of the two kids) who kept looking daggers at Jenny (and to me when I spoke to her dad) apparently although she is happy for her mum to be in a new relationship with a toyboy, she thinks she is the only female that needs to be in her dad's life! Nat, Terry & Candie were making me laugh saying I'd let them down by not bagging the eligible soon to be single man in the room!! adding "Pipped to the post by Jenny of all people who already has a man!! tut tut your losing your touch!!" I laughed I wasn't even looking to pull & he is shorter than me anyway!! chatted briefly to the divorcee to be.

Chatted to Candies Fun friend Stuart (who was at the burlesque fundraiser the other week) and Candie & I were telling him our (before we are 50) plans to have a Vajazzle & had to explain what it was, then I joked I might get a Penis Fly Trap done, he asked what that was? & I joked it was the same as a Vajazzle but instead of using rhinestones, you just slick very long eyelashes at the edge of each lip, opposite each other so it looks like a Venus Fly Trap lol......


We also said about our other (before we are 50) plans to do burlesque classes together, and to be life models, for art classes, makes a change from being the art student taking the classes!!

One Of My Life Drawings, When A Teenage Art Student

Stuart made me laugh when he said we could get our Vajazzles before we do our life class, that would certainly be a surprise for the art students, lol!!.... I said you could get a plain or multi coloured vajazzle & I thought I'd go with the plain, Stuart agreed that the multi coloured ones would look tacky!! & then we cracked up again, as if either would look classy!!

The excellent Fireworks show went off, Costa definitely got some excellent fireworks!! The house was full of smoke from the gunpowder from the fireworks let off in the garden, and Candie took rounds of Camembert out of the oven which we had with chunks of fresh bread & more red wine! Chatted some more to Stuart, like my friend Ozzy he is moving back to Australia, with his wife & two kids, she & the kids have gone ahead & he is tying up a few loose ends before following them on Tuesday (or at least he should be, but plane problems in the news lately has meant he may have to have his scheduled flight delayed) Jenny was getting more pissed and getting more full on flirty & she managed to get the soon to be divorced daddy's telephone number (you go girl!!) Nat & Terry gave me "that should of been you" looks which cracked me up!!

I could see Costa sat talking to Stuart was inebriated as his eyes were looking tired and heavy, when the Numbers had lessened to only a few kids & mostly close friends Candie put the music on & at one point was dancing on the table, while her son Xavier (Mr I love doing the clearing up) was putting bottles in the recycling & wiping surfaces & mopping the floor Costa was video tapping the bunch of us singing along to 80's hits, and I started to laugh & said he should send it into you've been framed, as you would of seen a bunch of boozy adults singing & in the background a 9yr old in a hi visibility jacket mopping the floor, it would look like child labour lol.....

But then he got over excited with an audience & with Candie dancing on the big wooden dining table he wanted to clean, Xavier shoved Candie & she went flying off the table into the large fireplace (luckily with no lit fire) hurting her back on the marble hearth!! OUCH! (She could end up with back problems like me now!!) after checking she was OK (Xavier was rapidly dispatched off to bed!!) We joked could she do it again? now that Costa had the video camera with him again, as we could make £200 for that on "You've Been Framed!!" 

The gang chatted some more & I went on the Cognac (good for throat) I coughed & ended up with a mouth full of phlegm (gross!!) so had to make my self scarce to rid myself of it (but Terry had clocked what happened by the look of horror on my face) Nat was looking fantastic, he'd lost more weight & had gained muscle, he said I looked better for gaining weight as did Terry, saying I looked so much better with some weight on!! I said I still wanted to lose the 1.5 - 2st I have gained, they said not to! Nat said it was when he looked at some pictures recently that he realised how skinny I'd got before.
 A Much Thinner Nat
A Bigger Nat, With A Slimmer Me

Saw Jenny in her coat wheeling a bike out the door, and assumed she was wheeling one of her boys bikes home, before coming back for the kids, a while later Candies phone went, Costa answered & there was some drama involving Jenny & Xavier's bike, that Candie & Nat had to go into the NOW pouring rain to sort. Super nosey Xavier heard his bike mentioned & stormed downstairs demanding to know where his bike was!!? He was dispatched back to bed & a while later Candie phoned my mobile, apparently Jenny had taken Xavier's bike to go to the garage for cigarettes & pain killers for Candie's back. As a policewoman you would of thought she would know she she shouldn't be on a bike while under the influence & especially a kids bike while pissed. 

Apparently she was covered in blood after coming off the bike & needed her kids distracted not to see her, well one was asleep on the sofa the other absorbed in poker game on the PC so it was not difficult to usher up to the bathroom unseen by them, she had a lump on her temple, a cut knee a cut elbow, the stockings she was flashing earlier were now shredded, eventually a Cab came & Jenny & kids were dispatched into the night. 

So then there was 8 of us and we let off the 2 giant flying lanterns off in the garden (that Nat & Terry had brought with them) the 1st Red one got caught on the shrubs underneath the boys bedroom window so Candy Knocked it down with a broom handle before it caused a blaze (in spite of the rain) the 2nd a white one sailed off like a rocket in the sky. Eventually everyone left except me & another of Candies friends & we crashed out on the blow up bed in Candies spare room. So with the excess of fireworks, Candies tumble off the Dining room table & Jenny's somersaults over the handlebars Candies Nov 5th Party definitely went off with a BANG!!!

Sunday 6th Nov, got up around 8-8.30am when I heard Candie up and about, her back is still very painful, I am sure she will find she will have troubles in the future with it!! I said Xavier would go ape when he sees the tate Jenny has got his bike in (he only had a few minor repairs a few weeks back) Chatted about the party & laughed about the goings on in the evening, and some neighbours networking each other like it was some cooperate suaray!! Showed Candie some old pics I found amid mums stuff in my back room, of me as a kid and my parents etc to scan

 Me & Monkey
 Me & Vicky
Me & Whisky
 With Mum & My Sister Julie
 Mum & Dad, At A Party, In A Bar
Me Aged 6yrs 

Had a Coffee plus Haloumi & Tomato roll for breakfast, Xavier came down and went into melt down over his bike (as I knew he would) and Candie was none to pleased when she looked and saw just how much damage Jenny had done. Costa headed off to his office for a bit & at 1.40pm I headed off to get the 102 bus as the last two 712 buses on a Saturday are at 3.30 or 6.40pm so decided on the 3.30pm one. Got a Sun paper from news agents en route to 102 stop & the bus arrived as soon as I got to the stop (great timing!) got to Brent Cross a hr early at 2.30pm so thought I'd pop to WHS for more free Match Attax tickets & have a nostalgic wander round Brent Cross. I was shocked when I lived in London I use to go to Brent Cross occasionally on a bus from Bounds Green, I use to think it was a big shopping centre but today it seemed tiny, The Harlequin in Watford dwarfs it!! it doesn't even have a Primark I thought ALL shopping centres did!? 




Got the 712 to St Albans & went to WHS in St Albans & got a 2nd lot of Match Attax tickets, then went home, could feel cold coming out more. Warmed up some of my spicy soup & downloaded some of my scanned photos into my facebook,  family tree album. then chilled in bed, still dressed, watching the TV as I felt Cold (having a cold didn't help) had a few texts from Nat, Candie made me laugh on Facebook.... saying....

Costa's excelled himself tonight I was just tucked up in bed when who knocks on the door ? Oh just the people he invited over to dinner, he'd forgotten about it and not mentioned a word to me!!! And although was great to see them I may actually properly kill him this time!!!!


Had to laugh that's typical Costa!!.... I asked if that's what he meant, when he said he had made arrangements with Stuart tonight? she replied.......

Oh no he would have gone out and left me with my surprise guests by myself if stu hadn't cancelled !!! 


That's so funny & with Candies ability to sleep through a bomb blast ..... literally!! (I once went to visit her in her flat in Cadagan Place, Knightsbridge, there were police & firemen & camera men everywhere the house 3 doors down from hers had been victim to a bomb attack, it had exploded & the firemen were putting out the flames, I was smashing on her front door & sitting room window <where she had fallen asleep on the couch> for 45mins before I managed to wake her!!) I said to her Lucky Stuart did Cancel & Costa was there, or your guests would have been hammering on your door to no reply!!!


I watched Harry Hills TV Burp, then The Xfactor..... I had to Twitter people to find out what this weeks song theme was & I found out it was American Anthems, well from the choices tonight, that really was not apparent!! For once I Don't like Dannii's dress tonight the colour was too washed out for her & she looked like a badly wrapped Xmas present  (even though Gok Wan was raving about it on Twitter) nor Cheryl's look she looked like she was playing dress up with a black childish Doyle like bow on her head!!


This Weeks Personal Critique Of The 10 Xfactor Finalists

Matt Cardle :- Good Voice, but not his best ever performance, bloody awful styling though!! That Air force Blue Mandarin collar shirt & Mustard strides should NEVER be seen together again!!! looked like some nerdy electronics shop floor worker!!


Rebecca Ferguson :- Her Vocals are good, not keen on her eye make-up, dress OK, she didn't set my world on fire though!


Mary Byrne :- Yet again the severe hair, but they have swapped the black clothing uniform they give her, for purple, BAD song choice, her worst vocal in show thus far. Didn't like it, was in wrong key for her,made her look like a bad singer!! She could be in trouble!!


Paije Richardson :- F**k me the stylist's have styled him as The Nutty Professor tonight!!! Fun but not "Crazy" about it!! No Pun intended!!


Treyc Cohen :- Good Make-up, Nice clothes & hair (for someone 20yrs older than Treyc) Good Vocals but not amazing!!


Aiden Grimshaw :- He is back to a song that suits him, good performance despite a few odd facial expressions, looking handsome from chest up, styling from waist down still bad!!


One Direction :- Good God its the Glee kids minus the non cheerleader girls, Cheesy performance, not their best performance, stylist was channeling High School Musical!


Cher Lloyd :- Good make-up & hair, the prettiest she has ever looked so far, eyebrows so much better, good vocal, but not crazy about it! Surprisingly a tad Karaoke rather than original, Clothes were better this week too!!


Katie Waissel :- Oh Dear Cheryl, each week the judges (especially Louie) Compare Katie to Gwen Steffani & so this week, you choose No Doubt's "Don't Speak" so a predictable choice & a BIG FAT FAIL!! she doesn't have a strong enough voice to project that song!! Katie is in trouble again this week!! FACT!!.... on the plus point, the only styling I liked 100% and the wig hid those ears & roots again!! Don't Speak is one of the songs I use to sing out of the Covers I did with Evil Barbie & The Ken-Dolls


Wagner:- Well what a surprise 2 songs cut and shunted together again, can't he remember the lyrics of one song all the way through?, bad, the 1st half worse than the last half, my friend Jake was bang on the money, when he said that Wagner looked more like Evil Kenevil after the crash, than Elvis, in that Rhinestone Jumpsuit, he should be out tomorrow night, but whether he will be is yet to be seen!!


The Xtra Factor, the show this week was pretty boring, BUT I found out two things, 1. that vocal coach Savan's face can continue to get stranger!! & 2. That Katie's 1st successful outfit was due to her completely ignoring Xfactors SHIT stylist Grace & doing her own thing!! (Well done Katie!! I take my multi coloured perspex hat off to you!!) That in mind seeing that Cher Lloyd is musing over sounding more Street by becoming Cher-L, how about Stylist Grace doing the same she could become Dis-Grace, as that aptly describes most of her styling attempts & which in turn means that most weeks I'm left with no choice other than to Diss Grace!!...


Caught the end of Million Pound Drop, Nicky wants me to enter for it with her, as we have a good source of general knowledge between us!! Then Dark Blue on Fiver USA then crashed out for the night, not many fireworks tonight so hope if Aku isn't indoors he is not scared!


Sunday 7th Nov, Had a odd dream that I was with Xfactors Katie Waissel & a black girl and we were being part of a 3 part girl group with a black girl I couldn't recognise from my dream, Katie was done up in a cross between her Halloween outfit & last nights Xfactor rock chick look, I was in Evil Barbie mode with big 18" blonde Beehive, the black girl had long hair & looked edgy & funky too!!! I was helping Katie make a Collage like poster as we killed time while camera's were being set up for either a photo shoot or pop video!


Woke with a sore throat, singing Friday night no doubt didn't help!! so stayed in bed drinking hot lemon & honey until 1pm trying to sweat the bitch out!! Then I got up washed & dressed & popped out for a News Of The World Paper a packet of Lockets for my throat & a mini JD to go in my hot toddy's for my cold!!...



I got on the scales I'd gained 2.5lb since Thursday, I knew I would as I ate bread & drank wine at Candies, Fri & Sat. Had Oat So Simple for brunch & later I had two quorn burgers with mustard & beans with lots of chili & curry powder in (to sweat cold out more)


Watched Coach trip while wrapped up like a Mummy trying to sweat out cold, I met the gay Hairdresser Pasquali when I auditioned for Coach trip, my friend Gemma & I got through but they changed the time period we were originally slotted into & Gemma couldn't get those dates off work, I ran into him again for another audition for a game show about a year later, still bunged up I had more hot toddy's.......Read the Sunday paper (didn't win the lottery with my 2 lucky dip lines!!) bugger another broke week next week then!!

Watched The Xactor Results Show, Dannii looked stunning in her figure hugging black dress, Cheryl cute in her beige number, Simon his usual self, but Louie looked stupid in his bow tie, the look just doesn't suit him, after the work done to make him look more youthful that look ages him!!!

The joint contestant song started Pinks "Rock Star" the girls looked OK but yet again the stylist's gave Mary severe hair that made her look even more like the picture below



Xfactor Stop with the pulled back piled high hair look for Mary PRONTO!!!!.... It's not flattering & unlike all other female contestants its bloody repetitive, like constantly dressing her in dark colours!! 

Shayne Ward was on & was looking a bit gaunt & looking at his styling tonight, I wouldn't be surprised if he is the next ex Xfactor contestant, to take a step out of the closet, oh dear what has happened to him?, I use to find him handsome, not tonight!! Song was also a damp squib, I wont be rushing out to buy it!! 

The Other Fab Minogue, Kylie was up next, Kylie looked pretty & cute in her little red mini dress, but for once not blown away by her new song, catchy, the kind of tune to blast out as a girl, when driving along in an open topped car, on a sunny day but more an album track than a single track!!

The break arrived and I felt Katie, Mary or Wagner could be in trouble, when the show came back it was results time!!!..... time to see where the public axe fell!!.... Aiden SAFE, Rebecca SAFE, Matt SAFE, One Direction SAFE, Paije SAFE, Cher SAFE, Wagner (amazingly) SAFE, it's now down to 3 Mary, TreyC & Katie, will the public's love for Mary Save her? or will my prediction of Mary & Katie come true? or like my dream will it be Katie V TreyC (the unknown black girl with long hair <TreyC's hair is down tonight>) Mary SAFE, OMG my dream was prophetic, as it was Katie & TreyC in the final sing off, so singing together, only my presence is missing (though at home watching!!) Katie sang 1st, Singing don't give up on me, not her best vocals quite weak again!! TreyC was next with Unbreak My Heart, a great song, but again her vocals were not at their best tonight, not quite sure who will be saved or maybe it will go to deadlock, then probably Katie will go! Hmmmmmmm?

Cheryl was gutless & refused to vote on either of her two acts so it was down to Louie after Simon Saved Katie & Dannii Saved TreyC & he predictably saved Katie!!! Which I thought was a cop out as Cheryl didn't vote it should of gone to deadlock!!

The Xtra Factor, dull show other than a caller telling Louie he looks like a Young Liberace, Konnie Huq is rather boring to watch tonight! Bland & Beige presenting yawn!!

Watched "The Only Way Is Essex" wondering if Cheryl Cole got her red hair look idea from Amy, the only difference being it suits Amy!! Arg bless him looks so shy judging the boxing ring card girls who were auditioning. Lydia is being pathetic, over Arg auditioning the girls, leave Shy, sweet Arg alone. I was with the footballer & property guy cracking up at Sam & Amy when they asked where North London was!! But nice to see them do the old secret code re guys on date or at a party, that my girlfriends & I have used over the past 24yrs we even used lip gloss as one of them, at one legendary Party I went to with Anna, Andrulla & Andrea in my Gori girl days!!! Kirk is on his date with the Ex Model DJ Lauren. She has a good tall slim body, and thick long hair but she is Fugly man!!! her big forehead and egg shaped head makes her look between a cross between an Albino Somalian or one of the classic Greys (in Alien sightings) & has that common accent!! PML Amy thought Guy Fawkes died on Nov 5th what do teachers teach in schools these days? to turn out so many people in their teens & 20's that are so ill educated?

Read some more of NOTW big double page spread on Christine Bleakley by Dan Wootton, didn't read it as She is boring enough to watch as it is, let alone to read about, don't get the Christine B hype at all, average looks, boyish body, average presenting skills & zero charisma!! YAWN!!!.....

Browsed through Now Magazine, Kirk is in it in his pants (turns out his dad owns Sugar Hut nightclub, so that's how he got to be a manager!!) Also an article on Noel Biderman's dating website for married people ashleymadison.com 

Watched The Real Housewives Of  New Jersey,  divinely Bitchy!! Teresa's daughter Gia is a spoilt, vain, precocious little brat!! But Teresa is an up herself, pain in the arse, so it's no surprise her kid grew up so annoying. Can't stand Caroline, or Teresa's husband  Joe either. Daniel has a hard as nails face (not helped by some too severe cosmetic work) but with her life story that's not surprising and of all the housewives of New Jersey she is actually the most likable, and has the best well adjusted kids, and Christie made a very pretty model. 


Went to try to sleep after that as I have a meeting I have to attend at 11am, don't know what it's about but as I have been emailing re money I should be reimbursed, after money I was due wasn't paid by mistake into my account, meant a direct debit couldn't be paid & I got £25 bank charges after I sent my bank statement as proof, the idiots wrote to me asking me to send it, after I already had!! I emailed them this NO REPLY I have continued to email them for 3 months STILL NO REPLY!!  You can bet your bottom dollar that, if it was me owing them money, they would be answering me back inept useless assholes!!


Wednesday, October 27, 2010

A Sick Count Down To Halloween, The Evil, Evil Barbie Hour!!!

Monday 25th Oct, Woke from a very weird dream where I stepped out of the home I was living in & when I turned round it had changed into another building & I couldn't find my home!! my mind is an enigma even to me!!.... This week is the lead up to Halloween a time that's normally as Weird as my dreams & one the big kid in me loves.
Rocky Horror Halloween!!


Very sunny out but very windy adding a chill to the air, my back was agony this morning, my exterior was calm but in my head I was screaming!!.... I can only akin the pain to toothache in my spine, its as if I have a mini spear head stuck into my nerve endings, When it is at its worse I want to make an incision with a Stanley knife & scrape the arthritic area away from the bone with a wire brush, then rinse it out & sew it back up, like a drill scraping away the decay from a tooth, or a toothbrush scraping away plaque, and then slooshing..... but of course I wouldn't it's a mass of nerve endings & I'd paralyze myself ..... but some times the pain drives you nuts!!


My buy now pay Oct 2011 Easytone Reebok trainers arrived in the post via Littkewoods at 9am (as I have no money now, so hoping I will have a decent job to pay for them in 12months in spite of the state of the country/economy) now I just need my back to improve so I can hit the gym!! but I guess I can wear them with my jeans when I am out & about etc.
Washed did hair & make-up wore black Jeans & black long sleeved T-Shirt & my loafers, my Parker coat & took the dogs for a run, in a vane attempt to ease my pain, and to get me out of the house, for some fresh air,  it was the one thing that kept me sane, when I had a bit of a break down, due to bereavement reactive depression last year, after my mum died, it's the only therapy the doc suggested, that actually had any effect on lifting my mood and stop me going stir crazy!!.
 Tallulah RIP


It was quite warm when the wind wasn't howling, I ran into my friend John in the park, who had a new female dog that looked like Tallulah, chatted about what I'd been doing since I last saw him, which wasn't a great deal, while Stanley tried romancing his new dog. He said he might come down to the premier of, Houseparty Of The Dead 6, in Camden at The Purple Turtle on the Tuesday 16th November.



Had Pasta with sun dried tomatoes for brunch, and did a bit of housework, no word back from the guy I have a soft spot for, since I replied to his message Saturday (lol guess it was the facebook inbox equivalent of a drunken text!) oh well that's the story of my life. I did a bit of housework & some more job searches, still waiting to hear back about Cosmetic Counter Manager job I applied for & I'm keen on getting!!  At 3.23pm I got a call from a gas engineer, to say they would be round Friday late afternoon to sort my cooker's, sticking, gas ring dials. Watched the soaps & had some Aubergine dip with Wholemeal Krisprolls for tea with a caffeine free diet coke.


Watched new Fiver dating show "The Love Bus" quite funny, and a bit cruel, I didn't get to be on "Take Me Out", as the show will be Airing around the time I'm on Showbiz (bugger) Made a big online Asda grocery order, used up what little money I had left in my bank account, as I will get more for my money doing one big shop with Asda rather than doing dribs & drabs in local stores & at least I can eat even for the next 3 weeks, even if I can't pay my bills at the moment, I got it to be delivered Wednesday morning, that should keep me fed for 3 weeks (hopefully if I use it wisely) all good healthy stuff.

I watched The Graham Norton Show, then the fantastically tacky, A Shot Of Love With Tila Tequila, then settled down in bed with The Sun Newspaper, while listening to Paul McKenna CD!!... back is still bad, ordered painkillers in Asda shop, but I can't order more than 2 boxes, due to some people using them for suicides, haven't noticed it rain today, if t hasn't it may rain in the night as the pain is too bad for it not to!!


There was a bit in The Sun, about the scum who murdered the kindly 89yr Widower Pensioner, who gave the homeless food & shelter under his own roof, he gave them food, cash & booze & the ungrateful scum battered the lovely old guy to death, obviously too nice for his own good, whoever killed Albert Feilding deserves the death penalty!! FACT!!


Tuesday 26th Oct, had a hugely complex dream with so much going on it was like a feature film, too much to even to begin to describe, woke in excruciating pain, got out off bed with difficulty, opening the curtains to a grey and rainy day!! knew it was coming!! Had some porridge with cinnamon & a coffee dressed the same as yesterday plus panda hat & gloves. Decided to go out to walk the dogs, even in the relentless misty rain (the kind that soaks you through to the skin) every step made me wince in pain, but I was determined to get out & get some exercise for myself & they'll reap the benefit at same time, it hurts but hopefully exercising some will stop it seizing up and getting worse, it also stops me being stir crazy, due to being stuck indoors bored day after day. Stanley was as good as gold as usual, but rapidly growing puppy Betty is still not trained to heel & still insists on pulling on the lead & jarring my back OUCH!!!!! which made me wonder if I should of stayed home & not botherd giving us all some excercise? Jennie, Edgar & their kids passed in their Range Rover & waved.


Got a Sun Newspaper later but was in too much pain to read it, in fact the pain made me feel nauseous it was so bad. In the end I had to take the last of my pain killers & go to bed, before I was in tears (Evil Barbie floored by her own spine!!!) not happy, very frustrated with my body's inadequacy!! So much for my idea about excercise easing it!!! by 5.30pm I was hungry but in too much pain to be cooking in the kitchen so snacked on 3 Krisprolls & some Aubergine dip & put heat pack in microwave to put on spine, to try ease the pain, which is becoming unbearable, while the bloody rain continued outside.



Spent the rest of the night in bed sick with pain, watching the odd bit of TV , What Katie Did Next, (we share quite a lot of Gemini traits Katie P & I)  The Vampire Diary's, then the Cheryl Cole Life Story's, program I missed on Saturday, as she described her Malaria, I was surprised how much it was like the Double Pneumonia I had (I was very lucky to survive that, I came very close to popping my clogs too, though I played it down to my late mum & family at the time, as I didn't want to scare mum)


I think mum guessed though I remembered how shocked she was when she ran into me unexpectedly in town, and didn't recognise who I was untill I spoke to her, when I'd gone to get my prescription, when I was coming out the other side of it. Lucky mum never saw me when I was in the deathly grip of Pneumonia, it would of caused her much fear & pain. The only difference from her description of Malaria seems to be the swollen up face! I watched Seven Days, as there was nothing much on. The supposed art pics were rubbish, but the actress girl seemed to think they were good. Tried again to see if I could read the paper later, as the pain had subsided a bit due to rest & heat pack!! But I didn't feel well enough to concentrate on it for long!


Wednesday 27th Oct, Woke in agony my back pain was so bad, I was near to tears, took me ages to get out of bed to go downstairs, to put heat pack in microwave, tried to ease pain with heat pack with no joy, got washed & dressed very slowly & carefully, had to dress as Asda Delivery was due in morning, the cupboards were empty and I was feeling weak, maybe due to not eating properly lately, due to struggling so badly financially, wish that bloody HRH agency would bloody get back to me re that job, I could do it standing on my head, I applied the day it was advertised 5days ago they would be an idiot to overlook me (bloody useless agency's if the company saw my CV I know I'd get an interview!!) as I got dressed (slowly) so I didn't scare the delivery guy when he arrived!!


The pain was so bad it was making me feel like I was going to throw up!! popped to corner shop for the paper before the delivery time (hopefully the pain will subside enough to read it & yesterdays paper properly this afternoon!!)  the delivery arrived, and I squealed with pain, as I tried to stoop to put things away in the fridge. I eventually got it done & couldn't believe how much it took it out of me (I felt shattered like the 3 years I'd spent in & out of hospital) not the lively person I was in May 2009, 6 months after my final op & just days before mum died. I'd ordered strong painkillers with my shopping & downed some as soon as I got to the bag they was in, like some junkie desperate for a fix!


Went to pop out to do a few chores at around 10.30am & put some rubbish in the wheelie bin, but the next thing I recall is waking up in hospital, apparently I must of collapsed in my courtyard after throwing away rubbish, as I was heading out into town, I don't really know what happened, apparently a neighbour found me & called ambulance (I have no idea who?) I don't know if I fainted or what? I have never fainted before if I did?


The doctors were doing a lot of tests as they didn't seem to know what the problem was, the possibility's ranged from.... 



Anemia (being a veggie I am occasionally slightly anemic) giving me some strong Iron tablets to boost my Iron levels


Or Malnutrition (admittedly I have been frugal with food past few weeks, because I am broke, I owe this months £650 rent & bills & god knows how I am going to pay them? thanks in part to Talk Talk, taking £80 they were not due, out of my bank account, making me unknowingly over drawn & costing me £100's in bank charges for an unauthorised overdraft, when I discovered by chance at a ATM that I was in minus not plus £, in my bank, I had to organise a overdraft, so that I was charged 50p per day, I was overdrawn, not the £5 a day I presently was, before I realised what Talk Talk had done, this was not helped by the fact they wouldn't refund the £80 they wrongly took, but only credit me the £80 to my Talk Talk account, so in doing so making me have no £ to pay off the bank debt they caused, plus another cock up with the government failing to make a payment they owed to me, costing me £25 for being unable to pay a direct debit, <neither being my fault> but even though money for food was scarce, and only then thanks to selling some of my own tatt on ebay, to afford a few bits, I thought I'd eaten enough veg & healthy stuff not to be malnourished??!!)


I mean its not like other times in the year when I've lived on porridge for breakfast/lunch & dinner to get by made with milk to start with, then water when what little change I had ran out, due tome  having nothing left money wise after paying rent, gas, electric & phone bills.Despite that I have always managed to blag that, I was doing OK & having the time of my life, to friends & family, and those around me though, Pride is a strange thing, and I don't do victim or asking for help well!


Or Stress (see same reasons as malnourished, plus at the moment it's a case of, lots of money going out & none coming in, it will be another bleak Xmas this year & a 2nd one without mum is not one I relish, I wish that bloody cosmetic counter manager job, I applied for, would respond!!)


Or Low Red & White Blood Cells, (Double Pneumonia, followed by shingles, followed by a tumour <fortunately benign> followed by 9 months with agonising gallstones, depleted my red & white cells & they were slowly increasing & then the shock of my mum dying hit me bad & health took a nosedive again, so maybe)


Or My Body Shutting Down to cope with the extreme pain of my spine recently (I have been saying the pain was making me nauseous) basically I think they don't have a bloody clue (I have little faith in UK doctors, or hospitals)


My dad died due to them not spotting his lung cancer (despite him complaining of chest pains for 2yrs) they misdiagnosed my menigism (a form of meningitis) once as a bad headache (thank god an ex insisted in taking me to hospital for a 2nd opinion) my Double Pneumonia was 1st misdiagnosed as asthma (despite me insisting that there was no family history or it & I thought I had pneumonia <I was right I knew better than the supposed trained doc> then it was misdiagnosed yet again as a chest cold) as I got worse & worse a pal rushed me to A&E where I was rushed into intensive care with Double Pneumonia. I was once told stomach pains were IBS, unconvinced I insisted on a ultrasound (that's when they found my tumour!!) I was also rushed into A&E screaming in agony by ambulance several times (thinking I was dying) before they eventually correctly diagnosed Gallstones.


Once about 10yrs ago I was treated like a hypochondriac by a Tottenham doctor, when I kept going back with a variety of systems & breaking down in tears in the surgery, when he said he could find nothing wrong, as all blood tests came back fine, when I knew something definitely wasn't right with me!! it turned out he was sending me for only a select few tests & not sending me for ALL available blood test options, a month later my gas central heating broke down, when the gas guy came to fix it, he went deathly white & said it was a miracle I was alive, apparently the system had not been serviced for at least 30-40yrs by his reckoning & the whole flu was blocked with leaves over 10" deep & all the fumes which were unable to escape, due to the blockage, were coming back into the flat, so I'd been breathing in pure carbon monoxide, he said he had no idea how I had survived the few months I'd lived there (my symptoms I'd been going to doc with, were apparently classic carbon monoxide poisoning symptoms!) I should of sued that landlord, he was so dodgy beyond belief & tried to screw me over when I left!


My beautiful mum had a few strange dizzy spells, which I made her go to doc about, they did a few blood tests & took her blood pressure & said nothing was wrong, then a month or two later she died unexpectedly of an aneurysm (it's always played on my mind, whether those dizzy spells were a warning sign of her aneurysm & the useless doctors missed it?) no doubt these tests will probably come to nothing, but we will see...... but I advise anyone if you feel something is wrong with you, and your doc fobs you off with something you don't feel is correct, get a 2nd opinion, or insist on an X-ray, or scan/ultrasound, or full blood test, no body knows your body like you, if you feel there is definitely something wrong do not be fobbed off by a doc playing things down, or acting like your wasting their time....  it could cost you your life!! it cost my dad his & nearly cost me mine 4 times!!!


I eventually was discharged & got home in the evening, with no conclusive answers, they said they would forward results to my doctor if they find anything & my doctor would then in turn contact me, I updated Facebook & Twitter statuses about being ill, then still weak & still in pain, I vegged in bed watching TV!! none of today's chores got done done, due to falling ill, I hope I feel better tomorrow and get to do them, it will be just my luck to get a response to the job I applied for & then be ill on the day of the interview & not on top form for the interview, it's getting me down that I have had no response from my application, when I would be brilliant at the job (even if I do say so myself!!) wish I knew who it was for so I could contact the company direct!!... but there is no info I can glean from the job listed on site.

Thought  maybe RuPauls Drag Race will cheer me up!?.... I managed to watch RuPaul despite feeling groggy it was very funny, glad Tatiana survived, then I crashed out for the night totally shattered!!

Thursday 28th Oct, Dozed on & off  until 2pm, I had a weird dream, where an unseen monster (that is often in my dreams) had lurked outside my home at night, in the day I looked into the back garden to see if there was any monster evidence (foot prints etc) and saw a negro woman who lived next door (in my dream) she confirmed she to had experienced the lurking monster before. I feel quite light headed, my back is still killing me, I'm wondering if it is a trapped nerve? as I have pins & needles in both my arms & hands, also woke with a sore throat too (oh bloody hell, body please don't give me a cold too!!)


I'm going to have lots of rest before Saturday, I love Halloween & I have missed too many Halloween do's due to ill health, over the past few years & I don't intend to this year!!.... had a golden syrup oat so simple with soya milk with a chopped banana in it & took a strong strength Iron tablet as suggested by doctor yesterday, as I'm quite anemic at the moment apparently (being a veggie I'm always slightly anemic, but apparently more so at the moment!) Ordered lots of spinach & green leafy veg on my Asda order, so hopefully my iron levels will be up soon.


I got a phone call from the people doing the music video I applied for, on Star Now Agency, she said they were interested in me being in it & the video, it is to be filmed in London this Sat afternoon, running through to the night. But I'm going to Andreas Halloween Party with Mike Saturday. I might of found a way round of doing it, if it was an actual paid job, but like most of Star Now Castings, it's unpaid (not even travel expenses refunded this time) I don't mind doing the free ones, if they pay travel (or else you are out of pocket £15) or if I can get a lift to it, as it boosts my acting CV & bumps up my performance numbers, to help me be eligible get an Equity Card, which helps you get good paid contact work, so I will do free ones if I'm not doing anything else except job searches, or taking a therapeutic walk round the park anyway, I can do either of  them any time I fancy, they are not like a time-tabled chore.


Shame, if it was on Sunday, maybe Mike would of given me a lift & maybe of done it with me for fun. I know years ago when I lived in London, I did a lot of free castings (I used my yearly travel-card for travel) and many of my really good well paid jobs (Like being featured background artist in "Bridget Jones Diary" and being on stage in numerous TV shows plus Bollywood Movies) came from originally doing a freebie and somebody on it liking me & using me on one of their big budget projects, or somebody spotting me in the thing I did for free & contacting me, to be in something their doing.  It certainly helped boost my day job wages. Hopefully It could happen  again even though I'm much older now.


It would be good to get some paid work before Xmas, still no word re Cosmetic Counter Manager job, it's pissing me off F**king useless retail employment agency staff, working in an office all their life, they never spot the potential of your CV if you don't have the right Buzz words in it (even if certain words in your CV mean the same thing, also the right Buzz words differ from one agency to the other, so you never know which one's to use!!) I think you shouldn't work in a Recruitment Agency unless you have worked in the industry you are recruiting for, for at least 3 years.


At 5pm when the pain killers had kicked in eventually somewhat, I got out of bed & pulled on a tracksuit (never normally seen on me, unless in the gym) an shoved on some make-up as not to look like the living dead, also looking cosmetically better, also has the placebo effect of making you feel better too, (as I learnt when giving my time for free for the "Look Great Feel Better" campagne, that involved free make overs & beauty kits, for Cancer patients in Hospital, when working in the beauty industry)


I went out to shop downstairs & got The Sun newspaper, they had thankfully not ran out, so later tonight I will try to read Tues, Wed & today's papers, then feeling more awake, I also called Asda & informed them they had charged me for 2 items they had not delivered! they said they will redeliver tomorrow, he asked what time I'd be in? I said I'm ill at the moment so I will be in all day. kept checking inbox for a email from RHR re Cosmetic Counter Manager but Nothing (gutted!!) returned my texts from friends saying they hoped I was better soon, I got a really sweet one from my local friend David, nice to know people care.
                                      
Turned on the TV & thought oooh there's Dance teacher Lauren from St Albans on The Weakest Link, she teaches Jennies daughter ballet. At 6pm I began reading today's paper (I will work backwards to Tuesdays one) Can't believe that vile woman, that murdered that poor Transvestite, by pushing him under a tube train at Kings Cross!! how horrific!! There was a fab pic of Kelly Osbourn painted gold to celebrate Sky's 50th HD Channel, I always said she was pretty & would look stunning without the puppy fat & that pic proved it!!
Link To Kelly Osbournes Golden Photos 
  
Had Danish Blue Cheese on Krisprolls & a fresh fruit salad for tea, while watching Home & Away, my Twitter friend  Ashley is in the Take Me Out studios, about to watch it, gutted I didn't make it onto the show but they decided not to use me, as the series Showbiz (which I'm in) comes out about the same time Take Me Out will be aired (maybe next year) shame as I haven't had a date in ages. Hope I end up getting some work out of Showbiz when aired (as that's the whole point!!) and they don't just use us to look like hopeful desperado losers!?.... no point letting them film me auditioning for work, if I'm not going to get anything positive out of it!!
 
My friend Greg text me but I had no phone credit to reply, also Candie Text me at 8.40pm saying she hoped I could come to their firework night on Friday (maybe I could get Mike to come with me & give me a lift?) too broke for two single fairs £15 Fri & £11.50 sat or a £15.50 return even. Maybe I could try the 712 bus that's £5 each way & runs on a Sat (not Sunday) that's still £10 when I have unpaid rent & bills, we will see. 

Got the munchies so I had some macaroni cheese for dinner at 9.30pm Watched the brilliant Celebrity Juice at 10pm followed by the fantastic True Blood!! which made me laugh when they used Leona's "Keep Bleeding" as a backing track to one of the scenes. Read some more of the papers including a bit about that Loser Charlie Sheen who was found naked after trashing his hotel room, high on drink & drugs, with a hooker locked in his wardrobe, what a total arsehole! I bet his dad & brother Emilio Estefez are so proud!! he looks much older than 45yrs even  with surgery (that's drink & drugs for you!!)

David Walliams model wife was in the paper, because she has won significant damages over unauthorised pictures of her in French Playboy, saying "No woman wants photos of themselves in Playboy without permission!" (for permission I think we can safely substitute payment!!) I think she should be flattered she is one hell of a minger, its amazing what make-up, lighting & airbrushing can do for a girl!!

There was a bit in Tuesdays paper about Cabbie Rapist John Worboys (above) they say he is officially the UK's worst sex predator, with at least 102 victims, I believe I was one of his intended victims. Because when I 1st read about it in the paper, March last year, it brought back memories of an experience in a black cab about 15 to 20yrs ago (when I was 26 to 31yrs old)  that I found odd & suspect. The experience went very much along the lines, that were described by some of his victims, the only difference being, that I was unwilling to drink anything offered by him, I can't say I recognise him from his picture in the paper (anyway he is about 15-20yrs older now anyway) but his MO is so akin I am sure it must be him (I have written it in a separate blog and posted it) I wrote to The Sun about it & the Journalist gave me a number for Scotland Yard line dealing with the case. I left a taped message with my number, but nobody called me back, maybe nobody was interested as I wasn't actually raped by him, but I thought my info might be able to show that he, may have been doing it for longer than was suspected at the time, I rang them a year back in March 2009.


Friday 29th Oct, had a complex dream which I can't really recall on waking but it was so full of action like a film, Called Asda again as I discovered they also charged me for carrot batons, but didn't deliver them, they said they would put the 3 missing items on a van for me to arrive between 2-6pm (it seems the guy I spoke to yesterday did NOT put the 2 missing items discovered yesterday, that he said would be delivered today, on a van, not impressed Hatfield!!)


I had a Golden Syrup Oat So Simple with a banana chopped in it & some crushed nuts sprinkles on top for brunch, got a Sun paper from local shop, moths flew out my purse at the till, I'm so broke, that if I found a penny & picked it up it would be for cash flow...... NOT Luck!!


Kept checking my Hotmail for a reply to my Cosmetic Counter Manager job application to RHR, nothing GUTTED!!!! today is the cut off day & they obviously are not going to contact me!! I'm livid I would excel at the job, and I have no idea who the company are that RHR are recruiting for?? so I can't go direct to the company!! Really want to scream!!!.... ARGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHH!!!!!!


Ahhhhhh that's better (well actually its not!! I'm sick of applying for 100's of jobs a month & 90% of the time not even getting a reply, especially when I have a good CV & education!!) You see all these dole scroungers in the papers, not wanting to work, as they have a cushy life paid by the state, they can afford to smoke, have satellite/cable TV, iphones, Xboxes, Holidays, huge flat screen TVs, takeaways, a social life with lots of booze HOW??? I don't get it, does having lots of  illegitimate kids really pay that well??


I'm frugal with my heating/lighting & food & still struggle to pay my rent, gas, electric & phone bills, it's been years since I have had a holiday & nights out have to involve free entry, a lift & either drinking soda water all night, or poncing a few drinks, or living on porridge for a few weeks to afford the fare into London, or if I sell something on ebay for more than 99p- £2 then I might be able to have a treat, I don't know how these people can be on the dole & rake it in??


The guys came & fixed my oven at 2.45pm  (so not that late) kept checking my email preying for a interview with RHR no joy  but I did find a email from Davina McCall's new show Find My Family, saying the following......


Dear June,

Thank you very much for getting in touch with 'Long Lost Family' and telling us about the search for your half-siblings.

We have nearly finished making the first series of 'Long Lost Family' and are therefore reducing the number of searches we are currently taking on. Unfortunately we have decided that we may not have time to take on and conclude the search for your half-siblings in time for inclusion in the first series, and for this reason we're sorry to say we're not going to be able to help you find your half-siblings at present.

However, when we begin work on the second series of 'Long Lost Family' in early 2011 we would very much like to get back in touch with you to see if you are still searching for your half-siblings and if you'd still
like our help.

Many thanks for applying and best of luck with your continued search for your half-siblings. We look forward to speaking to you again in a few months time.

Kind regards
Annabel


Which was a nice Surprise, as I had given up hope of hearing from them, after contacting them at the start of the year (you will know if you have read past blogs, that I have been trying to find the two half siblings I have never met, for years)  At 5.50pm Asda delivered the items they'd charged me for, but not delivered on Wednesday. Put them away in the freezer/fridge & took the 2 quorn fillets I'd been marinading in Soy Sauce & Ginger out of the fridge, grilled them & had with watercress salad. 


Still no word from RHR so I applied to actually work for them (I think they need someone who has worked in retail, to recognise a good retail CV when they see one, as they haven't got back to me!) and I can't apply more than once on the InRetail site. I then had a brain wave & googled the job description & found several sites advertising the same job (though still no info as to which company it is, the only clue is a Vibrant Cosmetic Retailer) all got sent off to RHR but to a different person each time (maybe one will spot my potential even  if another doesn't) Also found one for Selfridges that looked promising too!!.... plus one for Benefit on Gumtree, I'm "Fed Up" with being broke especially with Xmas on the way!!!... 


I really am on a mission to get that Counter Manager job through RHR. I think it's because out of the hundreds of jobs I have applied for over the past two months, that one leaped off the page screaming this job is tailor made for you!! so not hearing back from RHR has made me bloody minded in my determination to get an interview this time, as I could do it with my eyes closed, standing on my head, with one arm tied behind my back!!!.... even if the recruitment agency's can't see it!!


Got the nibbles later so had some Humus with carrot batons (that arrived earlier) and a bit of 80% dark chocolate, with a decaf coffee, and watched "Come Dine With Me" very amusing!! Then the fantastic "The Event" (I LOVE Science Fiction!!) Some people say The Event is Good but confusing but I don't see why??  It's Quite Simple Aliens crash landed in the 50's half escaped & blended in with human population the others were captured & kept in a secure USA, UFO stronghold, as prisoners & were questioned about the others, one alien has infiltrated the FBI and so is privy on all they are doing to track other Aliens etc, the boyfriend of the lead captured Alien Female, is becoming a bit of a loose cannon due to her not being released for over 50-60yrs, the humans on plane were meant to be saved, the FBI infiltrating Alien knew this, but the rogue loose cannon Alien killed them, for reasons yet unknown, the ones that stole the guys GF have an agenda either 4 or against the Aliens (we won't know which until we know whether her captures are Alien or human!!) at the end the suposed dead humans started to come back alive (thats funny as at the end of the last show I half wondered if that would happen!!)


My friend Mike called he said he is taking me to another friends Halloween Party after Andreas Saturday, the theme is Vampires & Virgins (so Vampire it is Lol) my friend Nicky invited me to a Halloween Bash in St Albans but I already had plans, she text me today saying did I want to go on Davina McCalls "The Million Pound Drop Live" with her if she applied, I said hell yeah that would change my fortune if we won big!! (to be honest even £200 would change my circumstances at the moment, let alone £1,000 or £1Million!!..... in fact I'd be grateful for £10-£50 at the moment!!)


Watched The Gorgeous George Lamb & his Dad play on The Million Pound Drop for charity, they made it through to the end, Georges face was just so cute as he cringed waiting to see if they were going to loose every thing due to their choices, I use to fancy his dad Larry years ago, when he was in Triangle, now years later when I'm older, I fancy his son George, Phwoooooor!!!  funny!!........















My friend Ian Mann is at The Buffy Halloween Weekender with his costume being Little Red Riding Hood, can't wait to see his pictures of it should be a scream in more ways than one!!.......


My What Big Hands You Have!!


Saturday 30th Oct, woke to a surprisingly bright sunny day, not quite so aching today, later I planned to go out to the market/shops to see if there was anything to add to my costume tonight. I got a letter in the post today, asking me to go to a appointment on Monday 8th of November, at 11am, no idea what that's all about?, but I guess I'll find out in just over a week! Had Golden Syrup Oats So Simple for breakfast, with some chopped nuts on top & a coffee. Pulled on Jersey Trousers & T-Shirt my lofa's & my cream Coat pulled back hair in pony tail (haven't washed hair for a few days, so it will smooth down & not show under black wig better tonight!)


Popped out to the shops, I thought I'd see if the long Grey wig, like the black one I got for £2 in Wilkinsons, was still there & maybe gone down in sale as they don't want to be left with stock after Halloween, yep they had reduced items & BLIMEY the shelves were practically empty & hoards were scavenging over the remains, passed by Anne Summers & saw a FAB Vampire Cape in the window, it had been reduced from £10 to £5 so I treated myself (even though I'm broke, as Mike is taking care of any expenses tonight) as it will go well with my theme of Burlesque Vampire Witch, and it will be great for future Halloween's too!!. Sadly I won't have a camera to take with me, as mine broke filming Houseparty Of The Living Dead 6, and I'm just too broke at the moment to have it fixed, or buy another one, even 2nd hand on ebay!! So will have to hope Mike, Andrea & Sarah bring theirs!


Lot's of cute dogs in town today including an adorable St Bernard, I LOVE them their like big cuddly teddy bears, I miss the days when I lived in West Sussex when I had 2 dogs, 6 cats, 3 buggies, 1 Green Amazon Parrot, 2 Hamsters & 2 goldfish. Local kids use to ask if they could come see my zoo lol (well there were horses, a donkey, sheep & wallaby's on the estate too) sadly some passed over time & more were added, but much a I love my flat, I hate the no pets clause, that meant I had to give my pets away, to Friends, Family & Strangers, but at least I could still visit & play with & walk those I gave to friends & family, but I do often wonder how Paris, my Pedigree Persian Cat, that I had to rehouse via the Cats Protection League is? 
 Paris June Symphony at Bath Time


Mum took in my cat Amy, so I saw her regularly, But nobody took Paris a she was a Persian & took lots of grooming & washing etc, which was really sad as she was such an affectionate cat, I often wonder who got her & if she is happy? It broke my heart, when my Amy died 6months (to the day) after mum died, but at least we secretly had 6months together! 






My Beautiful Amy RIP


It was my doc that told me, after I was extra low after losing Amy too, to spend more time getting out of my flat with my dogs, or my friends & their dogs, as I am so animal orientated & miss them like I do my late parents. 


Charlie


I often wonder how Charlie my Parrot is he was in his 70's when I had him & they can live well over 100yrs he had such a vocabulary after all those years, you could practically have a conversation with him, I loved him so much, we really had a close bond, I gave him to my Boyfriend of the time Ricky, in Brighton as when he wasn't in his band he worked in a pet shop, so Charlie use to travel to the pet shop with him in the car on his shoulder, or sat on the back of the passenger seat, & sit on a perch in the shop, chatting away to everyone (and hopefully not swearing too much!! lol, he was so funny & always swore in context!!) so hopefully he was happy in his new home & at the pet shop.


Had a Quorn fillet marinated in Soy Sauce & Ginger, with a Jacket Potato & Watercress Salad for Lunch. Then it was time to start getting ready, decided on being a burlesque like Vampire Witch, as 2nd Party was a Vampire's and Virgin's theme & Andrea's more your traditional Witchypoo's type, female Vampires are often depicted in Victorian corsetry & modern Vampires are often depicted as quite raunchy & erotic so think a Burlesque underwearish themed costume is apt (have gone as numerous, Witches, Ghouls, a Bat & once as a Rocky Horror Character in the past) So this one is a bit different for me this year.


Most girls when they do Halloween Witches or Vampires they always do Pretty make-up rarely a green face or truly pail gory Gothic, (not exactly the point, Halloween has nothing to do with being pretty) not me I'm not worried about pulling & looking attractive, for me it's all about the fun of getting into character!!...... So while watching "Strictly Come Dancing" (who had great tunes for their Halloween based show) my transformation started by me scraping my hair back with in a tight low pony tail, and then slipped a black stocking over it like a cap, wrapping the rest round my head & tucking under at the back to hide my blonde hair, stopping it showing through wig. I then applied a pail ivory foundation base, a powdering of talc, then over that I powdered "Versace's Lights All Over" Luminescent powder, which gave my face a white pearlized sheen, then I shaded my cheek hollows & temples in grey, then outlined my eyes with black, and applied black eyeshadow & penciled in black eyebrows as my blonde one's would look odd with black wig!! I then applied a brilliant red lipstick then patted fine red glitter (used by drag queens) all over it so my lips looked like Dorothy's Ruby Slippers, and sparkled as if made of jewels (sadly this effect doesn't ever seem to pick up in photographs) finally my make-up was completed with my over sized duo of Black, and Pink spotted Evil Barbie Lashes, giving a dramatic look with a slight burlesque twist. 

Next the outfit, going with the Vampire, Underwear Burlesque theme, I wore a vintage basque-esque looking lacy slip as a dress, and fishnet tights, but the waistband showed through slip, so I wore a wide leather belt to cover it, I'd tried stockings but the suspender belt showed up worse under it!! then I added a necklace I'd made out of bits of broken jewelry with a diamante skull on it, no point in earrings as the ling black wig, and high collar of cape would hide them anyway!! then I tied my vampire cloak at the neck with the bow at the back, Then I pulled on the long black wig (Very Cher!!) then added a jaunty mini witches hat on a band (very burlesque) The look was almost completed, I then  went to get my Patrick Cox Wannabe, black pointy knee high kinky boots (very catwoman like!!) 


I went into my wardrobe and took them out, only to find each had a sticky honey/resin like residue at the top of each inner leg, don't know what that is?? only clothes hanging above & other boots next to them in wardrobe!! tried using my Skin Therapy cleansing wipes to remove but it only made it worse,  making some of the rubber coating come away (SHIT shit shit  they're £300 boots) it also made the coating tacky all over, with fluff from my bedspread sticking to it,  making them look coated with cobwebs (good news for Halloween, bad news for one of my top 3 pairs, of fave boots!!) they are fucked .....shit!!, washed them down with a water soaked flannel, maybe I can get them cut down to mid calf length, or to ankle boots, bugger ..... mind you I have had them over 10yrs now & they have served me well!!


Mike arrived and I went to the car to meet him & the Turkish guys from the shop & the hairdresser girls, said I looked amazing & they'd never recognise me!!... Even Mike said he wouldn't of recognised me & he has known me 25yrs!! We got to the Venue "The Green Dragon" Winchmore Hill, and spotted Anna outside in a pink wig & halo as we pulled into the car park, Andrea had done a great job of doing up her half of the bar, with cobwebs, skulls, bats, skeletons, ghouls, pumpkins and fab Mona Lisa Paintings which turn into a Vampire Mona Lisa when you move side to side. 





Andrea looked great as a vampy vampire & the girls ranged from Morticia to naughty nun, witches, Mrs Freddie Kruger, vampires, with Sarah coming as a Pumpkin. 


 The Girls
Sexy Devil
Witchipoo's (look at all the spirit orbs to the right!!)
Mike Pops In For A Bite 
Lucky Sarah Is A Pumpkin & NOT A Blood Orange 
Elvira 
 Is That A Bone In Your Pocket?
Or Are You Just Pleased To See Me??
Burlesque Vampire Witch, Meets Burlesque Nun 

Chatted to Anna, Sarah, Andrea, Mike & the rest of the gang!! Mike bought me a few Vodka & Slimlines & a pint of Cider (classy or what!!) Anna kept going on about how skinny I was, I said "Thanks Anna, but I'm not, I have put on 2st since mum died last year!!" she said "Maybe but your still very slim!!" (thanks for that Anna) She said she is disgusted at herself for putting on so much weight, I said to try Paul McKenna's "I Can Make You Thin" CD as I found it a really easy way to drop weight & I've just started it again myself! she said to send her the link for book at a reduced price of £4.99 (the link is below for anyone else who wants to try it)



She said she would give it a go, I said I bet she finds herself surprised with the results, funnily enough after that the Halloween Platters came out chicken drumsticks with a red sticky coating & potato fritters with hot spicy red sauces. Being a Veggie Vampire I went for the fritters (guess a veggie vampire would live on blood oranges) At Midnight we left to go to another friends party, on the outskirts of London, as they kept texting that it was packed & really buzzing. We went to a late night off licence just as it was closing & Mike got a few cans of cider & beer as it was a bring a bottle party, and Mike wasn't drinking as he was driving, and I didn't fancy any more vodka, or wine. 

We got to the party & it was packed and it was full of an array of costumes, lots of Virgin Brides, one guy was a Vampire version of The Child Catcher, which was good, the house was massive and one room was done up like a dungeon with stocks & an electric chair etc which was fun, the electric chair was really comfy to sit on & the arm handy for standing your drink on. It was massive I joked it was my Vampire Throne, I clowned about with Mike (who went as my virgin dinner, with two fang marks & blood on his neck) Saying "Fetch Your Vampire Mistress a Virgin Gimp Boy to drain of blood!!!" and we joked in character for a bit especially when we saw two very short guys with great physiques in virgin slave costumes, and I Bellowed  fetch me my Gimps!!! Everyone was very friendly and chatty, even the people we didn't know. The music was good and Halloween appropriate. 


We left at around  2.15am which with the clocks going back became 1.15am & I got home at 3.10am (2.10am with clock change) just in time to see Xfactor repeat on ITV2 +1. Disappointed in Dannii's and Cheryl's outfits not very Halloween & Simon & Louie could of had a more Count Dracula looking shirt & Jacket

This Weeks Personal Critique Of The 11 Xfactor Finalists

Matt Cardle :- Good voice, but his least successful performance so far, not a good song choice, the fact it has blood in the title hardly makes it a Halloween song, styling boring again!

Rebecca Ferguson :- Her performance left me cold this, week not sure why, styling apt for theme, though not sure having wicked in the title, made Chris Issak's song theme appropriate (seemed like yet another theme cop-out!!)

Mary Byrne :- Yet again the lacking imagination stylists dressed her head to toe in black, and the same severe hair, but with horns this time, good voice, but I feel again the Take That song never reflected Halloween, just having Magic in the title does not make it a Halloween song, the hair yet again made her look like (below)




Paije Richardson :- His best performance, thus far but still didn't set the world on fire, again having black in the title does not make Back To Black a Halloween Song (Strictly Come Dancing were better at choosing their Halloween music) Styling much improved, even if a bit old for his age.


Treyc Cohen :- Good Vocals, a Take That Song yet again, not exactly Halloween, but more so than others on the night, unlike the hooded red dress & black lipstick outfit was a lame Halloween attempt, plus the lipstick was unflattering, either do a totally scary unattractive Halloween look or don't, The lipstick was off putting.


Aiden Grimshaw :- He still wasn't doing it for me again this week, he managed to make a fun lively song like Thriller droning & boring, very Emo, styling was so so


One Direction :- Good performance, good song choice, good vocals, Naf Styling


Katie Waissel :- Fare vocals, fun and apt for theme song, kooky spooky make-up was fun & wild wig hid those roots & ears nicely!!


Belle Amie :- The styling was much improved  and looked more coordinated, and apt for theme as was song, better vocals than before but still not outstanding!!


Cher Lloyd :- Good to see her not rapp for a change, her best singing performance thus far, song was perfect for theme! As was styling for once.


Wagner:- Well I wasn't far off with my Halloween song predictions, with predictable Louie, he did choose Bat Out Of Hell, Just for Wagner not Mary as I guessed, also a mish mash of 2 songs (as always!) for Wagner, can't he remember one song all the way through? Odd Styling like a Circus Ringmaster with one eye bleeding red sequins, and surely backing dancers should of been Bat's not Skeletons!!.... Think he & Aiden are in trouble this week 

The Xtra Factor, Again the bloody stylist looked awful, also amazed gawky Singing Coach Savan can get them to sing, as he appears to have trouble, talking coherently on camera. BUT I pissed myself laughing when The "Supposed" Stylist took Mary out clothes shopping, to make her feel more current & up to date!!! and ended up with a BLACK jumper, with a dated red outlined Ziggy Stardust flash across the front, frumpy, shapeless, dated & BLACK yet again!!, that stylist hasn't a clue!!..... That was NOT, CURRENT & UP TO DATE!! I'd not wear it a its too frumpy & I'm 4 years younger than Mary & neither would my teenage niece's, nor my niece's in their 20's & 30's It's the kind of thing Waynetta Slob would wear after a win at the bingo, or someone who buys those Wolf fleece jackets on QVC would wear!!

 Waynetta was thrilled by her Xfactor Stylist Make-Over

Crashed out around 4am while watching the Xtra Factor.... 

Sunday 31st October Halloween, Woke at 10.30am, and got up to make a coffee and got on the scales dreading a weight gain after the two party's last night........ but to my surprise I have lost 2lb since Thursday (Good ole Paul McKenna) WOW how much would I have lost without the partying?? Had some Cottage Cheese on Rice Cakes, and popped out to get a News Of The World, and watched the repeat of The Xtra Factor as I drifted in & out of sleep watching it in the wee hrs, didn't recognise any of the celebrity guest judges except Titchy Strider, then made lunch of a jacket potato & baked beans, (good Halloween/Guy Fawkes food) Then watched The Mummy on ITV2 seen it so many times even have it on DVD but I absolutely Adore Egyptology & find Mummy Imhotep sexy!! Andreas boyfriend had taken some pics at the Halloween Party & Put them on Facebook there were quite a lot of spirit orbs in the pics (Spirits love the positive energy of party's & are drawn to them, I bet they even get the irony of a Halloween one!!) but one had the hugest array of spirit orbs clustered together in one picture that I have ever seen!! I counted over 50 of them before I gave up (below)


Chatted a bit on Facebook & Twitter before watching The Xfactor Results Show, not wowed by the female judges outfits, Dannii's made her top half look broad, Cheryl's clashed with her hair, Bon Jovie did a great set with minimal help from the finalists, I had almost forgotten how cute John Bonjovi was with short hair!! Jamiriqui was also excellent, Rhianna's voice was good, and she looked pretty in spite of the horrid red hair, though not one of her better songs, not a single I'd buy. Surprised Aiden & Wagner wasn't in the bottom two, not surprised Belle Amie are, Surprised Katie was, as hers was Kooky but good, Belle Amie were out by the 1st three opening lines of their sing off song!, Katie was better than the girls, yet for a sing off song it was, not as good a performance as she was on last two weeks songs!!... Louie chickened out of voting Belle Amie out & opted for Katie making it go to deadlock but Belle Amie were still goners!!!.....

I was just about to watch this weeks "The Only Way Is Essex" when I got a Text out of the blue from my sister-in-law Karen saying "Question for You June....Have You Seen The Only Way Is Essex? Xx"

I replied "Yeah it cracks me up they are so dumb! x" 

to which she responded with "Ironic as I was going 2say how much they speak like you!! Ur Mum Wud of made a cracking Nana Pat! U OK hun? Xx

I didn't know whether to laugh or cry or be insulted, I was totally dumbfounded, Is that really how she thinks I sound? Thick & common, when in fact I'm very linguistic & eloquent, in fact one ex called me his posh totty due to my pronunciation, where as they can hardly string a sentence together & everything they say is peppered with "shaaaaaatup!" "He's so Jel" "Fanks" "Wotevahhhh" "innit" does she really see me as some common incoherent imbecile? I'm totally shocked!!

Or as a Northerner is that how all us Southerners sound to her? I truly was miffed!!.... last year she said Stacey Soloman from Xfactor reminded her of me!!! so I guess she does see me as a ditsy, incoherent, air head!.... I am far from flattered!!

I replied "OMG 1st Stacey & then this lot of lobotomised! you must see me as thick and common, lol OK I guess but I'm thinking of investing in elocution lessons now!!... xx"

She asked if I'd seen much of Nat & Terry lately & what I'd been up to? 

I said no I have been to broke to go to London unless, I have an audition that pays travel expense's, mostly I have been at home sending out constant job applications daily, to no avail, but had been to a few friends birthday event's that I couldn't  really afford to do, but I didn't want to let my friends down. I asked how things were for Bill & Her & Baby Alex?


She said "Fine Chick, Bill has gone self employed last month, so we have no income yet either, I start work again after maternity leave from tomorrow, Alex is fab we love him so Much.

Spent the rest of the night reading The News Of the World, it's Fabulous supplement & Now Magazine!! before my head hit the pillow!!